why does she get red faces instead of red roses?

ignore the grammar, but i just wanted to write a poem today, i feel very blah. its deep though. enjoy! comment.

                              My face is red
I feel like i don't belong
I feel used by you
Pick a new poison
I learned to love the pain
'cuz that's all im used to
Since you dont love me
Inside me i know the truth
You wont ever love me
So just go ahead
Take me for granted
Again, hurt me with your pain
You just dont know how to love me right
Give me a kiss goodnight
As i smell another perfume linger
I dont want to be the one
To pull the trigger on myself
Pain is the only emotion i know
Everything feels wrong
I dont want to show you i know
As i back away, my face is red
I try to get through another night all alone
Because your always going to be this way
           As the next sunshine day comes
I fake a smile when you say, "hey"
I can see the black and blue hickey on your neck
And the red lipstick on the top of your shirt
That you dont even try to hide
As i say, " what the heck?" in my head
Without another moment i scream,
" You don't mean anything, we cant be"
As my heartbeat passes by i can feel your hand
slapped onto my face
Once again, my face is red
One again, as you grab my hand
While acting like nothing has happen
I try to move, to break free
Once again, my face is red.
What is a girl to do, with all the pain?

Author's Note

hope you like it.

Reviews

[SimplyOlivia]

i love this and the way you changed the font and color. it really puts effect on the reader

[tbwdtw]

I like the detail and the imagery.
It's very unorganized, though.
That seems to be your style, which is good when it emphasizes desperation and confusion.

[bwmorency]

Hi.

[Kon™]

great piece