Guilt

A guilty conscience.

Vanity manifests itself in peutred attempts to satisfy those around me.

In every situation, the inate reaction is to put first those I love.

This seemingly holy deed done not for payment but sure satisfaction of bringing the slightest glimpse of relief in the life of another has been faithful in its course to backfire!

 

The battles of life set my heart as the constant victim,

Without arms, without aid, without hope.

But still it persists in fighting,

Why?

The heart loves only that which it cannot have!

Foolish, yet factual.

Happiness appeals to the sorrowful state of the soul,

Rest provides a sensual relief to a tormented soldier,

A smile can tear away the unshapely wrinkles left by a lifetime of depression.

 

These glorious yet elusive necesities are the cornerstones that fuel the dying flame which the heart yurns for.

 

Drawing close to those who still fail to see my truest emotions leave me as the culprit.

To the blind i have displayed my innocence,

To the deaf, songs of love and promises have been sang!

Still they, still none, have captured the truth,

I am no illusionist,

My role is not to deceive!

My time is not spent in conspiracy; What you see is what you get.

~Again, to the blind I display these emotions~

 

For a moment, i ponder, I review my deeds with a heavy heart,

Seeing now that my fatal error was giving way to emotions,

Those misleading forces,

Deceptive bodies!

Having given way to the wave of sensations, my true self will now never be witnessed or appreciated.

The blind will now never see, the deaf shall never interpret such sound!

 

Trust has become my enemy, while sincerity has betrayed morals.

Now, left with undying fear of assumptions based on reasonable foundations,

My only companion in the midst of my lasting torment,

Is guilt.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Author's Note

Simply expression

Reviews

[BlessedLove]

wow. I...I loved it.
Left me speechless.
Umm,beautiful. Wierd, I understand everything it's saying.
I'm seeing things in your perspective.
Sad...yet true.
Beautiful....
Seems simple expression is truly what comes from the heart...if only we all had the ability to "simply express"...then again...if we all had the ability....poems like this wouldn't be as special..or as appreciated.

Thanx for that josh.
I truly hope things get better...As your poem seems to speak of more than one experience.

Just note that you'll always have my emotional support...

Keep it sweet..God bless

~~Blessed~~

I love the last line, simply because it contrasts against the long lines previously.

The picture you chose for this is quite fitting, I think.

I don't know much about poems, but this seems full of emotion and complexity.

smile=D,
- jac

[luke312]

Truly a beautiful, well expressed piece that just can't be understood the way it deserves unless experienced. truly a great job man

[Lady V]

And nothing more is needed but simple expression. Great piece. Keep them coming.

Live, Love and Learn

Lady V