Pe'ahi

The emotions are rising
like an unbreakable wave
it is reaching its peak
do I dare to be brave?
I've tried to surf  this before
always knocked right back to the shore
swimming against the currents seems counter productive
so I'm searching for a flow that's more constructive
cause drowning is no way to breath
and the clear open water is not always what it seems
I'm jaded here
sitting and watching the sunset by the beach
but this stubbornness  keeps the big waves out of reach