Only If You Could Forgive Me.

Unstable mind will always wonder around Seeking for the answers that wont be found

I don't remember when I asked for our relationship to begin,
But I remember the feelings you gave me whenever I was around you.
I felt as if I was in a place where I would never get hurt and that's exactly what you did.
I have never realized the pains of love until now.
Everywhere I look I see your name or a small symbol that reminds me of you,
and I find myself getting angry because it only reminds me of the pain that I cannot be with you.
I wish that we could go back to the days when it was me and you.
I want to show you how much you mean to me.
You make my heart stop, even now after a year
Whenever anyone mentions your name or I see your face.
I only wish things in life were simpler so that it could be me with you. I will love you forever.

The silence after all years went by, makes me dig deeper in my heart.
Looking for the courses of my actions and the answers to why I had to hurt you that way,
living life hopping that one day I'll be forgiven forever.
May be now I sound absurd into your mind, years later I came to realize how much I miss you,
not just your love alone but every little things we shared and every little words we spoke,
I miss the laughter and soft look of your eyes.
I hate to look at your framed photo hanging on my wall for no reason,
I get heartache knowing that your not there, how I can deny the fact of my feelings.
I know they say everything happen for a reason but this one I don't know what it might be
all I see is how unreflectively I've been to you and until now I don't have a nice thing to say
or a better way to have you back on the same page.
No doubt that you might have been moved on to a better life
only if I get to hear from you at least one more time and only if you could ease my thought of rebuilding your fortress that I broke it down.
Please understand that I was selfish through out the time when you stood by me
You tried to hold me tight until you decided to let me loose
since I was just a kid in me I didn�t care much, not knowing what I�ll be missing you terribly later in my life.
Sometime I don�t want to barge in and agree that we tend to hurt the people we love most and we realize that when is too late as it is right now.

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[masikio]

la vie est pleine de misère, il en faut beaucoup pour faire bien les choses.