Aftermath ii

Sometimes I love too hard. To genuine and intense. The ending is more intense.

I have deleted every text

While rereading one by one

Shedding so many tears

Until the final one was done

 

I deleted all the pictures

One by one they went

Crying the entire time 

Feeling everything to me you meant

 

I’ve laid awake for hours

Unable to stop the pain

Tossing, turning, heart ache burning

Unable to tame my brain

 

I just want to hear, I love you

Everything will be ok

Then fall asleep beside you

In my arms is where you lay

 

I can feel the moment coming

You are about to walk away

You will tell me that you are sorry

I feel what you are about to say

 

I’ll just want to beg you

Baby please don’t go

I know that you are afraid

Honey please, no, honey no

Oh, I hate this feeling

This cycle of defeat

This constant breaking heart

That lay in pieces at my feel

 

I am broken

To many pieces that are shard

Too much constant bleeding

Of wounds that have not scarred

 

I feel like every breath

Comes in and goes to waste

I am merely a shell of a man

You the dream that I chased

 

I wish I was a monster

Someone who everyone hated  

It would make it easy to let go

And be more abated