Tears, Hearts, Games, And Messed Up Parts (Story Of My Life)

i just wish that you would have chose before you chose me.

Tears, Hearts, Games, And Messed Up Parts (Story Of My Life)

 

I knew it

I knew it’d come to this

Before you did

I could see it

I knew

I knew it would come down

To her love

Or mine

For you

I’ve been down this road time and time again

I’ve played this game before

And I lost

And I’m tired of losing

And I don’t have the strength to fight

There’s nothing I can do

To show you more love

To show you more care

To show you that I should be the one

Because I’ve done it

I’ve loved you as much as you’ve let me

I’ve done everything I could to be a good girlfriend

But still it’s not enough

Not enough to dissuade you

Because you still love her

But you chose me

But now you don’t know

Well now I don’t know

All I know is that I love you

That I want you

I want you to be happy

I want you be able to fully love someone

In the way that I fully love you

But I hope you don’t have to feel like this ever again

The way I feel right now

Because to fully love someone

Is the scariest thing in the world

And right now

I almost just want to forfeit

And give up

But yes you are worth it

Yes I love you more than you know

And yes, I know I will not hurt you

But no

I won’t let this hurt me

More than it already has

And no,

I won’t wait around forever

Because I know

That it will destroy me

I’m not like her

I will not wait for you forever

I will not sit around and wish I could be with you

I will not meddle in your relationships

Because if you are happy with someone else

Then you are happy

And that’s what I want you to be

I am NOT one of those girls

Who will be pulled back and forth

I am NOT going to play this for long

But it doesn’t mean that I don’t love you

Because in your heart you know I do

But be aware that if you choose wrong

And if your choice is her

There is a high possibility you will lose me forever

That if she wasn’t the right choice

You probably already lost me

So she’ll have to be.

 

I love you, you know I do.

But I’m not about to let you hurt me

More than you already have

You really should have thought this through

Before I completely fell in love with you.