What Was My Reason To Freely Join Prison, Because Those Bars Aren't Fluffy Bunnies Anymore

i really would like to rip up my contract, move to LA and do what I want to do. this just isn't for me. i thought it was, but it's not.

Can’t take it anymore

I want out

I don’t want this anymore

Rip up my contract

Send me on my way

Because I’m done

Done with the bullshit

Done with the restraints

Done with the so called

Integrity

So called freedom

Because this place

Feels like a prison

Which I have no control over

So please

Let me disappear

Let me wipe myself off this slate

Cuz it’s gonna slit my throat

And I just can’t do it anymore

I’ve had it with your rules

Your legalities

Your stupid decisions

And your stupid forms

I thought you were for me

I thought we’d be good for each other

But we weren’t

And we’re not

It’ll get better

Somehow I doubt it

But let’s look back

Yes, let’s

Let’s see

What good you’ve done for me

Staring at the options

I thought I made the right choice

The one I should choose

The most logical sense

Secure

Safe

To an extent

But now standing here

Alone

I wonder

What was my reasoning

Why did I think this would make me happy?

Why did I think this was the right choice?

Why?

I came here to be stronger

I guess I did

Only to deal with more

To be smarter

To only feel stupid

To have integrity

To be worse than I was

To make the past, past

To make the past a present pattern

To make a difference

To sit at a desk and think about what I could be doing

To have more friends?

To lose them as quickly as I found them

To have a relationship?

To screw him over without reasonable cause

To feel safe?

To have my best friend betray me and make me terrified

To become a better person?

Haha.

Don’t make me laugh.

 

So what good did it do?

 

Believe me, I’m still trying to figure that out.

Because right now, the only silver lining I see

Is the lining of a coffin around me

God bless America.

We f*****g need it.

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FYI, this isn't me insulting the military or it's ways, i mean some i don't agree with. this is just me personally saying this isn't the life i wanted