I Give A New Meaning To The Word Pathetic (It's Called Hiding The Truth)

relationships can be pretty fucked up. then again, sometimes it's not the relationship itself that's fucked up. Sometimes it's just you. Or in this case, me.

Some days, it feels like I’m doomed

Doomed to circle this cycle

This cycle where I just keep doing

The same damn things

The same damn screwups

And coming up with the same damn results

You really would think I’d learn by now

You’d think I’d have enough common sense

To realize how stupid this really is

How stupid I really am

But no

I keep hoping

This time will be better

This time I’ll be happier

This will be okay

Well,

This

 sucks.

So where am I today?

Let me tell you.

 

I’m torn

Spinning around

Don’t know up from down

Because I feel crazy now

And I try to think of how

How I got here

But I don’t know

All I know

Is that I’m here

Full of apprehension

Full of fear

Hiding honesty

Because the man I want

Does not really want me

And I know the minute

The very second he finds out

That I care more than he’ll ever know

That will be his signal that it’s time to go

 

And I don’t want that

And I don’t know why I stay

And I contemplate why every single day

But I can’t put my finger on it

This one

I can’t just end it and say

“We’re done”

So what should I do

What shall I do?

A lie can cover up the truth

Because not that he’ll read this anyway

So this little game I have to play

Hiding my heart

Just so he’ll stay.

This s**t is really gay.

 

Author's Note

don't be offended that i used the word gay please...i like gay people. just, this seemed fitting for the ending.

Reviews

[Rico Suave]

That ending summed it up pretty well. lol

[UpComesDown]

if this were on facebook i would hit the like button a million times
but yeah kei this ones great.... i really love it.

[YouoweYoupay]

*claps hands* awesome dark piece full of frustration and questions, my facourite parts were:

So this little game I have to play

Hiding my heart

Just so he’ll stay.


This s**t is really gay.

incluing the word: gay. itreally does fit. =3 ha!

Thank for sharing.

(Wella)

[Hello, Goodbye]

You revel in the feeling of frustration with a total sense of abandonment.. I love it..