My Cards Are All Out On The Table, But I Didn't Know You Were Bluffing

you know when you show every part of you only to find that it's not reciprocated

My Cards Are All Out On The Table, But I Didn't Know You Were Bluffing

 

I have told you everything there is to know
About my past, present, and future
I made sure I left nothing out
I thought you should know
Who I was
Who I am
And who I wish to be
All of the bad
All of the good
 
This is how much I love you
To be perfectly honest about everything
Putting all my cards on the table
Every insecurity
Every curiosity
Every fear
Every tear
Baring my soul out to you
 
You told me loved me
You told me I could trust you
You said
“I will never leave you”
“You can wear your heart on your sleeve”
“You can tell me”
 
And in the blink of an eye
It all vanished
You told me nothing but lies
Now, all I do is cry
Not only was it enough
To cheat at the card game
But you shared my cards with everyone you knew
 
Now everyone knows
What a head case I am
How I look in the mirror
And just want to cry
How many times a day
I feel like I want to die
Every insecurity
Every doubt
All the self-consciousness
Every stupid secret I shared with you
Is now plastered all over the walls
It hurts
It hurts so bad
To know I trusted you
And what use
It came to be
Now this heart on my sleeve
Is bleeding all over my shirt
Because you stabbed it with your lies
So my shirt is now stained
With tears, embarrassment, and the stench of blood
Now all I want to do
Is dig a hole so deep
I could lie in it
And sleep an eternal sleep
 
So thanks for nothing
Thanks for making my life a lot worse
Thanks so much
I'm going to stick my head in the sand
And possibly never come back up.
 
I didn’t know you were bluffing
When you told me to show you my cards
That you wouldn’t cheat
That exile would be the fate I’d meet
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Reviews

[Robin]

I love how the last stanza condenses the complete sentiment of this poem . well done