Just Chalk It Up To Teen Angst

this isn't about my mom. i took a lot of people's lives and merged it into a poem. including my fictional character, Christine, from my book What Happens When Your Life Falls Apart

 

Just Chalk It Up To Teen Angst

 

Don’t worry your pretty little head

Go on,

Tell yourself it’s not your fault

Tell yourself

You did nothing wrong

 

Here I am lying in the hospital

And all you can think about is

How it affects you

How are YOU supposed to move on

How are YOU going to cope

 

Meanwhile

I'm still here

Trying to find a reason to hold on

A reason to come back

From this oh-so-suicidal state I'm in

 

So go on

Blame it on my father

Blame it on me

Whoever you blame it on

I'm positive it won’t be you

 

It just sickens me

How pathetic you are

How I can lie here

Struggling for my life

And you won’t even cry

It makes me so angry

That all you do is focus

On how my decisions affect you

 

But you know what?

You’re never going to change

I gave up on that dream long ago

You’ll always remain the same

And even though you know you’re the reason

I don’t have any strength

Go on Mom,

Just chalk it up to teen angst.