In Closing

the final chapter, what i've learned.

In Closing

 

     Looking back on the last year, things have really been tough. I know that others have gone through way worse than me, but you have to understand, this is difficult for me. My whole life has been completely turned upside down in the matter of one year. A year that was supposed to be my “Sweet Sixteen”. As I wrote this, I really began to remember everything that has happened to me in this past year. Some good, most bad.

     I’ve been hurt by relationships, friends, family, and by God. I’ve cried so much in the past year, I could be an ad for Cymbalta.

     I have met people that have been supportive through the year. People that I find completely amazing and I love so much. Thanks to Mr. Matteson, Rose, Trystn, Devin, Harry, Peter, Ella, Nick, Tenzin, Jackie, Kat, Micah, Jesse, Mariah,Cisco, Zach, and anyone else I forgot. I love you all Soooo much.

     So my birthday is in two weeks. Finally this year has ended.

     My life now is very different from when I turned sixteen. I'm no longer in depression, but I am depressed when I am home. I have friends that are crazier than anyone I have ever known. I also wear more eyeliner than I have in my entire life. The things about guys I'm attracted to have differed as well. I used to like the type that were sporty and cool. Now, the guys I'm attracted to are guys who wear eyeliner, are dorks, and aren’t afraid to be crazy or different.

     Another thing that I wouldn’t have thought last year would ever happen would be the person that I found in the last few months that I care so much.

     I never thought I would want God to answer someone else’s prayers more than my own. I never thought I’d want God to fix someone else’s bad situations more than my own. I didn’t think I would ever say to God, “If you can only do one thing for me, keep him safe.”

     I didn’t think that the person that I had met half a year ago, would be the person that I think I'm falling in love with now.

     I thought I knew what love was a year ago. I'm learning that I didn’t know then, but I think I do now.

 

     Love is patient

               Love is kind.

                    It always trusts

                         Always perseveres

                              Love never fails.

Of course, I never thought it would be with the guy that my parents hate. Well, no one ever said love was going to be easy.

 

EPILOGUE: Hello, why would there be an epilogue? I just wrote this! Crazy people…

 

This has been Juli, year 16

          Pray seventeen will be a better one.

                    Love You all.

    

                       Sweet 16

 

 

                          Happiness

 

It’s a rarity

Family

Don’t get me started

School

Gosh I hate math

Friends

Some lost, some gained

Life

Losing an ounce with every tear

Hope

Well, yeah I still got some of that

Sweet 16

Not so sweet

But I'm looking forward

Seventeen is around the corner

 

 

Reviews

[jumbie's #1 fan]

oh my jesus. my 17th year was the worst one in history. holy s**t.

[UpComesDown]

i love the end seventeen is just around the corner.... cant wait for the summer and the "deserter" shall return!

[Rico Suave]

you forgot to mention me :'( lol. nah, jk. I know I have someplace in the back of your head. Hopefully most of it isn't traumatizing xD Love ya Juli