Its this worth a broken heart? ..

Date: 2012, August 26.
On His Birtday eve he whispered into my ears...


You came crashing like a car without a brake in
The middle of a zigzag, steep road leading to my
Chamber of insecurities and resemtment. Yet, you
Lit up a candle in its darkness, seeing the
Potential within in my eyes. There waß something
Special about the light you bought - too bright
For us to see beyond its glow


You felt that a deeper love for me could
Lift the massive rock that was inside of
Me. But with each push it only seemed to
Glow heavier, putting our relationship in
Danger of collapsing under its weight


Then reality struck like lightening, and suddenly,
Moments with you poured down like heavy rain,
Flooding my thoughts with the realization of the
energy and expectations i'd invested in what i
Believed was genuine, and pure, a mere illusion of a
Ideal relationship.


There you stood, and it dawned on me - i 've never
Truly fallen in love; in truth, i was merely afraid of solitude, yearning for someone to
Brush against my skin each night, shielding me
From the invisible confines of loneliness. Your
Love, as genuine as it may be, isn't enough for
Me to let go and set fire to this sanctuary of comfort, emerging healed from its ashes.


But you rise before the sun each day, ensuring its
Beams ĝrace my face, granting me a fresh start,
Yet, the icy chilli of my nights slowly numbed your
Limbs and crept the depths of your being.


Your heart pounded like a tickibg bomb, on
The verge of detonation. Its final beat
Wasn't a sound but a question: "its this worth a broken heart?"


-jesdy jacob
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