i am the reason for your state atthamma......

I am the reason for your state, athamma, please forgive me, i wouldnt say this and go away,, but i would stay with you till you are fine, 

i would asked him not to get into that state to him asking was prohibited by him and stopped my voice and thoughts, how much ever i tried with my silent mind. 

now i miss you both, i am here with my loneliness though  you both just beside me, i cant do anything but just do what ever i can, 

if i think i am doing wrong, you punish me with that state, anyhow i am no more than that state i am going through, 

in a state of away from him, my son and you, the three important people in my life, 

i still need to how rest of my life goes.......