early morning craving! i never felt at any time

i just woke up and it is 5,30 am and feeling hungry and wanted to eat that sweet which i am carrying got from someone, i just ate it, having the cravings i never had before. I got this, side upper and the one of side lower berth, that guy called me aunty as if he is kid but he is in 20s , and feels as if so young i wanted to ask him again, if he says aunty, how old are you, am i looking your mother age, bhaiyya? that guy is all day sleeping on the seat and making me to go to my berth i said no one sleeps in day time, and this is my seat in day time i will not go to my berth i said clearly. 

i just woke and saw his reply, he started working in this early morning, replying in WC, i dont know when he is sleeping and waking up, if it is like that how he will digest what he is eating, and when he can have good sleep when the sex seekers feeding his body parts like eagle on dead body, poking and picking and eating away. 

i heard that kottakal is near to the city where i am going, felt happy i can have nice massage therapy and dhaara on my forehead with nice thailam oils, i wanted my mother in law to have nice massage to her legs and back so that she can get relieved off pain she is having by just lying down whole day, i wish she is with me and we both go together,  i wish she just sits in a chair roam whole house where she used to be doing before, going here and there and fixing things and getting things from outside, she is just told to lie down, but i feel why should whole day watching tv if not ipad, i think she must walk in her chair, and do the things which she wants to do.  i would be her legs if not taking her out to shopping. 

one more day to go in this train, not so boring but not feeling to travel lonely, i thought  i would enter this state with him, not alone, but the fate had some thing else, as he cant come along with me i had to go alone, 

i wish i fulfill everything, only i am missing him and his mom, she is not talking to me but i know how much she likes me and misses me to talk and love me. Anyway few things are not told directly and we have to understand feelings in heart which are not being expressed, i know the heart of mother in law, how much likes her daughter in law like her daughter who teaches and sees herself in that home how she came like her, in that home lighting light and happiness in the home, 

When is that Diwali and christmas lights being lighted by me, still the time is not seeing us together how bad is that time which is not allowing people  to stop the wrong things they are doing to us, but this time has seen so many good things and also bad things in on this planet, we just need to wait for the better things to come and everything will be fine again even the great souls of family from heaven bless us . 

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[Jibey]

Life is like a train and we share the space with other travellers... so are sex seekers, some are weary souls, some are heading into the unknown... In our berths we think of many things, dreaming of longing and seeing visions of good times.. for they shall surely come... we must have faith.