what i could do for him

everything i could do is wait for him

everything and every day is not satisfactory if we think of future and why doesnt it happen now

then we feel restless cant wait for that future day to come forgetting what we have in current time 

we plan so many things for future expecting to happen and trying to achieve those, we forget time what we are having in our hands, 

if we think of future expecting things to happen in certain way, we never know it would happen in the same way, but if we instead make things which we have in our hands and enjoy the life, 

what i have in my life now is my son, my career and his virtual presence, i am able to manage my son and my career. The dream like everyone else wants to get married and lead happy life with husband and kids, i too want and dreamt of, but since 2015 i am living alone waiting for him and thinking  when we will be living in a home together, few days i cried i dont have him and no home for me as i stayed with my parents and in NPO doing satsangs and learning things for life, sometimes i  felt like i dont have anything to do and what is the purpose of living when he doesnt cared about me, and didnt come for me, till now also i am living without any purpose, and somehow making life better to make my son happy. I feel our unseen dreams without achieving them you feel no reason to live at least if we make a purpose to live for your dreams like for me i want to love him and live happily with him, and make my son a better citizen. 

With a purpose in life we have aim to achieve, and do everything to achieve and our future beholds in us making our current life happy without being anxious and restless. 

i wanted to become a wife, a mother and beloved to my husband and inlaws, i also wanted god in my life seeking he is the ultimate love giver and care taker, and so i fed up with humans who hurted my soul and so i wished and prayed for god to be in my life and that was the only wish i seeked when i left in lap of my mother Goddess, when she asked me what do you want i said only Krishna as my body is feeling pain with humans and their torture, and then she said i will have Krishna and he is going to be in my life, even when i went to learn yoga from guruji, on the last day he asked please let me know what is my only wish then i said i need way to reach lord Krishna, then he said and promised i will show him and make him reach. 

I think i have seen my inner most desire i feel my only purpose is to seek God and be with him, and it is my only purpose to live, having said all this now i feel better that i shouldnt cry for my loneliness, as he would definitely reach me and be with me. 

this is my purpose in life. 

-jessy jacob, 

a willing heart will definitely find a way. 

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[Jibey]

Yes, love finds a way
We count our blessings and keep our dreams as dreams.
We imagine how it might be, but make the best of how it is.
'All things work together for good for those who love God'