It was Onam!

It was Onam, in 2001, his love for me, budding he grew 12 yrs already, I was in my 20s, he grew taller than me, I was slim, he was tall and fit to his height. I was doing Navaratri fast for 9 days. I made Amman idol, started doing pooja, every day I needed flowers, make one different prasadam, and do ashtotharam with Kumkumarchana . He used to watch me daily, without paying attention to him, I was deeply in mother goddess prayers waking up at 3.30am, till 7am chanting mantra and then offering prasad, he got fed up why I was not even talking to him. On the third day, he just came to me in the night while I was sleeping in my room at 10pm after finishing all my household work, and kissed me on my cheek and said I love you Rani, and went to his room. I was not fully asleep I heard his voice and touch of lips on my cheek and I didn’t say anything and I didn’t made him realize that I wasn’t awake. The next day morning as usual I did my pooja, and went to him to give prasad after he woke up. I said Kanna, I am doing very strict pooja where 24/7 I need to chant God’s name, that’s why i didn’t talk to you. Ok then I will also sit with you in evening bhajan , is that ok?? Ok kanna come for pooja Bhajans we will offer pooja together.
It was the last day of navaratri, he said I will do fast on this last day tell me how should I do, you don’t need to do fasting, just pray, but what are you praying to god I don’t think you have any wish. Yes I have everything what should I ask, I have parents, sister, money, and a good friend like you, what did I need more. Ok I told them wish for poor people to get help and be helpful to them. Ok I will do that he said.
It was Onam dasara, in the temple, it is celebrated grandly. We three me him and NoNu went to see celebrations, on the way to return to home, he got me flowers and said keep it Rani I know NoNu has short hair, you have long hair, it will look good, ok I will keep. So you are done with pooja, no more chanting right? Yes yesterday only 9 day’s fast finished today I am not on fast, I ate two times. And will sleep whole night no need to wake-up early tomorrow, he unintentional said so I will also sleep beside you tonight, NoNu was laughing what did you say? What nothing he corrected his sentence I mean I will also sleep whole night.
Then on the night when everyone was sleeping he came to her room, are you sleeping Rani, no not yet just changed clothes will sleep now. Ok, can we talk for sometime, yea but aren’t you tired. Do you ever liked any man?? What is that question she asked again as if not understood the question. He said, do I look like man to you, I am
Not a kid anymore, see I am taller than you, I was worried you still treat me a kid, no I know you are becoming big, then he just hugged her, what what are you doing, he suddenly stopped hugging her, sorry, nothing like that, kanna it’s getting late you go and sleep. Rani I am not getting sleep, I wish I talk to you whole night, ok what do you want to talk, he says tell me what you like, I said I like cooking, reading, rangoli, and then doing pooja. What ? You just like only these, did you see I have light hair on my lips, my mustache, what are you saying she laughs. You are not a man now. No he gets angry, see don’t say that. I love you Rani, seriously he kisses her cheeks. She just pushes him away, don’t try to kiss me, why not? You are small, No I am growing up, ok go to to your room and sleep. No Rani these days I was praying to god to have you love me, what are saying I am loving you, no you treat me like a kid, ok ! You are not a kid I know, then treat me like a boyfriend. What she laughs again, no seriously! He says. Ok my dear kanna you are my love you go and sleep, then he says give me a kiss then! What ?? I will call amma go and sleep now, he with his angry face goes to his room.

The next day, he was brushing his teeth watching his face, am I not looking old now to Rani? What should I do to love me like a man, he calls her Rani can you come to my room. She goes to his room, take this book of romantic novel and read, it’s a love story of a teenage boy who fells in love with a little older girl. Ok I will read, she started thinking is he liking me like his girl, what is this, why he is thinking like that, I know he is getting matured. He starts wearing pants, to look like a man, with decent tone he started talking to her, to make her feel like I am big now. He comes and stands beside her as if try to touch her, then she starts feeling his romantic love for her,..,
One day he was about to fall completely on her as if hugging her, she suddenly realizes is he going to touch me, in front of everyone, then he slightly balanced him not to touch but with a inch a gap to her chest he moves back, he gives a look to her scary face, she just can’t forget his eyes which are longing to make love to her. Yes that was in a restaurant when we stood in queue waiting for table. She didn’t forget that moment till now.