Thella mandaram - white hibiscus 🌺?!A Chapter by JessyJacob
I love hibiscus for its big petals, especially the red and white are so beautiful. I went to temple today, lord Ganesha’s. The power was out when I entered, I did pradikshna around the garbha gudi, rang the �"", and bowed with hands holding together, suddenly the power came with lights on. When I entered the temple first, I was thinking power is off? Hmm it’s ok.
It’s a small temple in my place. It’s been a month I didn’t go to temple, finally I went today. Hmm small small wishes happen around us, I just neeed a life with him, O my Ganesha, stop all the evil which is blocking our way, today I missed him so much, lying flat over the pillow as if I am Over him, hugging �- and pleaded this world, and everyone, could you all give him to me, I miss him, I don’t know why I want to love him love him love only him for life and beyond, I could feel his warmth and as if he is with me in my arms, saying umm, I felt crying and begging this world and every one, I love him please give him to me, he is like my son who came from my spine, who is like my son who protected me like a shadow, and even on that eclipse or at 12 noon the shadow enters into me and protects me though people can’t see at that time. He is missing me too, he holds me, his anger is like smoke just fades off soon, his emotions are like deep sensations which touches once and stays forever, his feelings and addiction for me are like affections of mother who is carrying a baby in womb can’t wait to see her and touch her. His tears for her could melt any tough ❤️, his smile is like Jadhoo which tempts any woman to kiss him, his lips when he makes a kiss is like cherry on cake to bite back him, his voice is like a soft music which touches heart , his sneezed stuffed nose voice , haan he says makes me to take kerchief and clear the mucus which is hurting so hardly not coming out by just holding his head, like a small kid , like when a kid says mama, nose… as he says in those winter days shush shush with nose can’t breathe nicely. His chest with one button open, always makes me to look at it, don’t know why it attracts me, and his beautiful neck, can’t wait to kiss �'� it, always wonders he shaves chest or no much hair on his chest. His palms, his naked feet, love to kiss, got a chance to look at his palm , so reddish with small lines, which I felt and was worried he too has troubles like me, so rich kid and good heart why problems for him. I really wanted to see his feet but never he called me to his apartment and never I met him in his apartment, only place I used to see him is that 6 th floor 3000 building as if like movie name 300, with one zero off. I saw him from back twice I am sure he is. For the first time he tilted his face sideways to make me to recognize him, but the second time he was on shirt with tucking in, without turning face sideways, I think he wanted me to see or tested me whether i will recognize him but I could , I have seen him front back sides for whole long 4 yrs, my eyes shall find him anywhere, but this time he was so slim I know he is not eating well, with eyes swollen, cheeks losing shine, when I saw him few yrs back for the first time his face was skinny but somehow his face looks cute like kid. Now I feel he is in my city following me, as always he does but how long is it something stopping or he needs time or he wants me to find him at his home but very scared to go again , if I go this time i will ask directly where is Jaygee, why can’t he talk to me, I just want to see him, can’t I even see him? he knows me right, this is Jessy Jacob, Amma, could you call him down?? © 2023 JessyJacob |
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Added on September 10, 2023 Last Updated on September 10, 2023 AuthorJessyJacobAboutA dressed up bride waiting for her man in wedded dress but world will see where that when that wedding happens as she doesn’t know for herself too so she married gets married every day in temple.. more..Writing
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