Kolan on onam - with him

Kolam for Onam she loves to put for the festival with colors and one more with flowers.
He always come to her and tries as if helping but messes her muggu by improper sequence of coloring it and saying sorry, then comes again we shall put it again, shall I get water. Then amma comes and says enough you naughty boy you messed up her kolam, if you both do again it will be evening all guests will come and let it be. It’s ok amma I just worried it doesn’t look good when relatives visits in the evening. She used to plan for days for the design of muggu and makes soil dried colors for the festival, though he spoils her Kolanm, she feels it’s ok let him have fun on the festival she doesn’t want to get irritated and angry on him. He feels sorry inside but loves to see her sad face at him with tears filled eyes that never come out.
On the same day we make pongali, with me wearing new Saree and necklace given by amma, as she gives her every year, he waits impatiently to see me in Saree on that day, with hair tied with flowers. She hesitates to come in front of him, as she feels shy to show him her Saree. Owner and he wears lungi, we all gather in the backyard to make pongali on the wood stove. He remains decent here helping me in the wood to burn properly, we decorate the pot with flowers and make pongali with rice jaggery banana and offer to sun god. Then we make lots of other dishes of non veg with bajjis, appam, especially the fish curry, my amma makes really tasty one I learnt from her and can make like her which he too likes.
In the evening of the same day I go to temple of maa durga to offer my prayers. Amma always makes him to take me to temple. Both went to the temple on his royal enfield bullet bike. She never gets to break the coconut until he tried the last time which breaks equally with flower inside, there is a belief if there is flower inside our wishes come true in the form of blessings as flower by god. He never used to break that nicely it used to flip 10 ft when he tried to break coconut before. Now he is matured in his 20s, knows how to do things properly with much care. They both pray to goddess and sat down in temple hall eating the laddu prasadam, , He asks her why do you believe in god and why do you come to this temple? I don’t have other than your family I just pray for your family to be safe and happy, I offer prayers to this Amman. He just can’t see a tear rolling in her eyes when she was explaining this, he stands up and goes to Pujari could you give me the Amman maala, Pujari doesn’t ask why, and gives to him, he takes that garland puts on her, I married you Rani, you are my wife you are part of my family, she can’t couldn’t understand what was he doing, he takes her near, never say you are alone. She touches his feet, with wiping her tears. Then both go home. On the way he was telling to her that I will tell to amma Appa, about us and they will not say anything to us. I am not worried wasn’t it something too fast for you to do, I know but I don’t want to wait.

In the night before she goes to sleep he was watching her parents pic with tears, and keeps her garland in her metal trunk. He sees that calls her can you get me water I will be waiting upstairs. He washes her face goes in her Saree with water and also laddu to his room. He was anxiously waiting for her, seeing her in her room closes the door, stands near to her, she exclaimed what you are doing, I can’t wait , it’s been Years waiting for this moment, do you know how much I missed you, hmm me too do you know? Can I touch you he approaches her with touching her hand which she was rolling into her Pallu. I don’t think it’s fast, I can’t till our wedding to be made by parents. I know, don’t say anything, he just kisses her on her lips taking her near with two hands on her back. After few minutes they both sat on the floor, resting his head over her lap with her stretched legs, he holds her hands? Do you know how much I felt so sad in that country without you, I just sleep on the blanket and pillow which you packed for me, every night missing you. I used to miss with amma every day talking about you whether you had eaten well, she used to cry sometimes and couldn’t eat well but at the same time she was telling me he had to do study and manage the dads biz , it’s fine he will be fine. This time summer we will make so many dishes for him. I used to say yea amma, we will surprise with new dishes. He laughs did you both missed so much, everyday at dinner I used to get hiccups, really do you know she says, why you used to get hichpps, because we were missing you at that time. Later he turns on slow melodies music with dim light, he asks why don’t you sleep tonight with me, hmm no, he requests her please, she couldn’t say no for the first time when asks so pleadingly, they both lie on bed, he touches her left abdomen while she lie flat touching his neck, a slow breeze comes through window swinging the net over bed, he touches her heart kisses on the naval, by getting on top of her, they both change places huggging kissing, the room becomes chilly, with their arms holding each other, he with his longing wish to hold her takes her as if he can’t resist she away from him a inch apart of air in between, he touches her with longing desire to have her nectar consuming like a BaBy in mothers lap with her n****e taking in milk as if he is thirst for years to have her giving hers. She takes me into her space with soul to soul touch, with sealed legs covering their bodies with blanket as he unclothed her and his body with their souls touch tresspass within each other not getting distinguished, by their breath holding into one breath and single heart beat, he just takes her into his space and fills her core, she giving and offering her body and soul as if they both are giving rise to so many wishes of this universe, fulfilling the purpose of their birth on the request of their devotees. The ecstasy they had they shower to this world like blossomed flowers over the earth 🌍, with ❤️ love to them. They had ever eternal bliss on that cot of grand parents which was carried by their great grand parents and parents , they roll on it and fall to the floor and smile at each other with a baby zygote formation in her womb.
She wakes up watching him in deep sleep and kisses on his forehead with three lines. He is my shiva the ultimate blessing of my soul.