A lower middle class family !

There was a family, hardly they are self sufficient, for the big family the extended with grand father mother, uncles aunts, and cousins. My grand father passed away in his 40s for the illness he had. He had given birth to 10 beautiful children where my father was the elder. Now the responsibility of all his brothers including his wife and children fell on him and his next in line brother, both really worked hard to make their two sisters married and brothers educated. 

My grand mother used to make rasam and one curry, sambar every other day to feed all of us, to get that curry is like feast, everyone has their plates, will eat in their plates only, as i was very small, i got egg shaped plate, i used to sit with all my uncles and cousins siblings to eat on the floor. 

Once a nearby thief stole all their steel vessels which were placed outside where my mom couldnt wash due to heavy rain. 

i was grown up in extended family, know the values, love by uncles aunts, cousins, still every one knows and calls me by name rani, and do adore me my big aunt till now feeds me.

So now my family responsibility fell on me as my father got debts, due to more responsibilities, so i focused more on study books not just to pass but to get into top 5 and my mom was stronger encouragement into studies, though i had small desires of infatuations but my mom always told study study rani, no other attention needed. So i never read a novel nor a love story, all that i know is movies once in a 6 months or in a doordarshan tv. Her maternal grand father was a freedon fighter congress party always told i will take you to delhi to show red fort, he attended death funeral of Indira gandhi in delhi when she was shot dead, he had a pic with Rajeev gandhi too. He is my mentor as i havent seen my paternal grand father,  i was 1 yr old when he passed away. 

My point of telling this story, i got into introudction of sex only when i read kamasutra after my wedding, differetn posutures the intent of actual sex, soul to soul touch. I never know intercourse that too only from directly with my X husband, this is a average woman in village or town in india. Its not something wrong that every one should know sex right in 5th class or 7th class itself, everything has a time, eventually everyone will know.

so is ther anything worng in my case... or is it non romantic of me that is making me to look fool infront of passionate lovers that i seek sleep, i seek sleep to feel him his touch of ecstacy over my heart, as he adores me so much.

As a girl i cant say more than this, i am sorry for my ignorance....

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[JessyJacob]

even in biology till +12, we know body parts but sex never shown or seen in text books. sorry i may not understood properly in those days.