I took this promise to finish it....

i took this prmoise, i dont know you will be there with me, i wasnt knowing, you came with me along with that lady, left me alone, saying me cooking pot, i was there in that yagnam and finished it up the havan, i adore you shiva for you being my man,i feel somewhere somwhow you loved and adored me too, But as time passed you said i am old, not fit for marrying you and taking care of you, i stil adore you as my man, still 20 yrs mannnn, i hav to survive, lonely though my son visits me, no see or talk of you as who you are by the man, i dont know what you are trying to do. i want to go back where i came from i am not worried about my son, he can handle his life, i am not able to handle my life,,, you left me very hurtingly, making me so weird and angry, poking my anger,,,,, and showed to this world that i am a b***h cum devil,, that was so bad on you, but still i didnt say, tried to show i am not bad.. i did yazzer, i am fine, there is nothing to be done from my side or even your side too, i want to leave this world, as you are not coming for me right????