Pain inside

me my son and him and her

Pain of both my son and him, and her pain too, my heart bleeds as if oozing tears from eyes, trying to console myslef , my son oand him to go never ever land, in this early mrning my son missing me and he missing me, asking me to be with me no with me, she confused where to be, here there? giving strength to my son saying be bold Eshan you are fine i am coming back, in a month we will have fun, india is not far just near  2o hrs flight,if i can afford i will reach in 7 hrs in latest jet planes, wish me success in my endeavors where i could afford you more fun frequently visiting you, i know all your childhood is going off without me what i can do bonded with my responsbilities and love of you both, and people think eshan I am going for those innocents who are calling me to rescue them, dont think that i am going for your step dad, its for them Eshan, so be bold I will be back soon. Ideal is she where moved on, but i couldnt i dont want to move on i will stay with him near to him when ever he needs me, he cant be alone, i dont want to stay him alone as he misses so much us. Here i start my journey back to the woods and native mountains, hills, innocents, broken roads, poor houses, going to do sometning for them in their tough times, i inspire my heart my self without a destination, home, job where to go without money and debts in hand, but yea he gives hope and those four calling me we are here dont worry, you will be fine we surround you in protection when needed, though no one talks to me, bein touch in my mind giving ideas to guide ahead. He welcomes with a smile, i miss you want you here, and my son bids bye, i am here wating for your next visit, take care of yourself mom. we love you, go ahead, be successful in your path.