He says he hided his love

But he hasnt, it was disclosed evry second about hsi heartbeat how much he cares and loves her.

Every now and then i feel to think about him in my soul and writings whenevr i get a break of second during my day at office. 'Only one thing botheres her, is has gone that extreme with her, why he couldnt stand for her, when she was out at his gate. Was a mystery in the history to be revealed to people, who thyslef thought he may not be the right person. EVeryone was angry including me and his family, how he can do esp my brother was thinking thought he may not know what he needs. But his family supported in his decision including he might have taken serious decision. what she thinks about him is he may be right in his big day decision, but he coulld have given little bit if time to make out the secret fron that Kamini, the milk ocean where it was mathaninchabadindhi. Sorry i mixed telugu here. try to understand the flow to make it sync with my intent i have selected the words here. i also want him to say that word, just teasing him his prnounciation, he cant say that word, i will be glad if he says in telugu accent. I have good expereince how he says few telugu difficult words, i say could you repeat again, pleas what, then he diverts the topic, i was just kidding you, then my man. Later he proved he can speak better his mother tongue, was impressed you do so speak and your tongue can twist, so i will teach you telugu and you can do maybe very well than my Eshaa. 

I was thinking he got bored of his motherly care, which i thought might be too old to him and his dreams, but dont know ii think my physical appearance as young misleaded him to touch his heart and he knows my age already, i hate myself looking too young even now my friends compliment me you look so young unbelioevable that you are in 40s, i dont want to look too young atleast not beyond 10 yrs, ofcourse it is too much but for him, i want to look little attractive at our personal space beside him. Was it a wonder that Goddess mother created me for him, maybe she cares about our improper timing of taking birth on this earth for her, thought she rectified like this, to make us happy, atleast i feel i maybe giving good sleep on the bed to him. 

He teases my smile at this age as if i am looking like a teenager, no man, i am with grey hair, dont want to color it anymore, its a new shade on my hair. 

need to work, will wirte in the night, have a good sleep all of you my readers. 

Reviews

[lightsong]

I see it is a chapter and it seems it is a part of a long story, but it reads more like a diary or a blog to me, also some confusion there for me, some parts I couldn't fully understand maybe because it is a part of many parts? though, at times your wrote "she, then me or he" maybe You would go back to read it again?

[JessyJacob]

its not edited yet, i was just writing, will correct the mistakes, here author is itself she and its her personal story, not a blog, its autobiography .

[lightsong]

oh! ok my friend, all the best in your writing and editing, don't forget to pay attention to the grammar.

[JessyJacob]

sure, will do.

[JessyJacob]

i am writing as parts/chapters in book, as i write randomly but consolidating as per chapter name.

[lightsong]

In my opinion, You should organize them with a right order and name.

[JessyJacob]

yea, i agree, then i have to write chapter names first, and then organize the content accordingly. right order also makes sense, but it is complex here my story starts in the middle where i met him but i do write from his childhood and birth, so topics to be organixed as chronologically i suppose, and then add my encounters with him accordingly. Will try, please i need your help in this if you have time.

[lightsong]

I don't have the time to read it all, but I can help You with this, You can start when You first met him and in the next chapters You can go back to the past, most important... chapters must have a number and a tittle of You wish, for example,

Chapter 1, The Meeting
Chapter 2,....
Chapter 3, .....
etc,

[JessyJacob]

ok got some clues, appreciate your time, will seasonally discuss with you the progress, and brief summary i would give to you to assess, not to waste your time.