Who does he resemble!!

Whenever he watches his image in the selfie or mirror, he thinks he looks better, but people say i am bit old. i was thinking he didnt looked old but a school kid always with cute smile, saying howdy. and continues saying another day in paradise isnt it haan? In some pics he looks different, but when i see from near, and also from far, he looks handsome and also hot, in one of his video in turn around, i was like my heart squeezed and throbbed high, why is looking so and making me as if he is going to touch me, the scary feeling you get when your first day with your man, as he says hi to you, never felt that feeling with any, not even my previous relationship. To be frank he was looking hot to me, where my heart started beating high, i dont know how to explain, but this is what i felt, i know framed it in different way for my survival previosly, at the end of it all, he looks so romantic to me, always love in heart to touch me and feel me. Any girl can dream of such love from her man, he is of that kind. When he changes his mood to kiddo, he is like dancing as if like a small boy want to hav fun, he is like kid at heart sometimes, and tries to be man for others who hurts him, but with me he was always a kiddo, romantic gentle man, and serious angry adult. 

He wants to be looked, when i dont giv a look out of my routine, he waits and makes me to turn my head towards him, as and when i look and look again and again, he never gives a look as if he is not watcing me, he just wants me to get his attention, like a baby when not given attention, are you paying attention to me, he says, even my son screams at me, similar to him. I say  i am listening and looking at you. 

Where is my coffee, as in a old grandpa style or maybe his dad, fighting with their wife, he shouts at me, i hope this made me to dream of him in a class. 

He doesnt know dance, he feels to dance as much he could, me too dream as if i am dancing like a dancer, when i start dancing or he, he makes steps with no rhythm. He changes his haircut, and comes to me as if looking at me, but talks to me someone else, saying did you look at me, i feel like what is the change and i dont see anything, hmm, see my hair, oh, you changed hairstyle , i see the difference, i did noticed the change, but where i was not finding, you look nice, once in a while he changes his hair style, too short, medium length, the too short cut looks very handsom to me, and curls are ok, looks like gentlemen. His hairline is changing deep into back, but his charm on his face makes him look cute and handsome, with dark shades, he looks different  but i love his nude face, with light hair trimmed over lips, under chin, clean shave he looks old, but with hair looks young as a teenager. i dont like his first day shave, but maybe he looks cute like vasudeva, maybe not as shiva with long beard, just religious touch to make him feel not bad. 

The first day first time when i saw him, he looked as if young man, but to me i felt like as in early 20s or 19s, his cute smile made me feel so, it was harsh to me when he didnt say bye or call me to take his books which he asked, which later i realized that, he doesnt want to say as i am going to come to see you again, its not final bid never i gonna say bye to you, as we are always together. 

Sometimes i see his day dreams, in the meditation, he says while praying to vasudeva, he comes in traditional attire, white lungi and says i cant marry, yea but i can give money, i say i just need to get wedded to you, what i will do with that money and richness without you, i love you, why dont you marry me, he still said i cant marry you with cute smile, it was hurting me, when he said so, but his smile never makes me angry whatever he says. 

SOme times in that meditative state, he walks by side of me, me holding sheep, he says with his black tee full sleeves with a smile, and just fades that thought, he was keeoing in touch with me now and then, this was at the time of his wedding. i didnt even realize he will marry someone, until i say his registry. 

later with his cigar, and cute smile with his traditional white shirt says and touches me on my cheek, are you fine, i was mesmerised with his style with that f*g. Now and then he gives his presence, i know the reason why he kept me away, as Gayatri doesnt marry anyone, but i tell him, i am still parvathy to you shiva why dont you understand me and my love, now he realized that why he was waiting for god's approval. My x husband and my son took risk for the world and let me go to him as per shiva's/his will, will this young lady allow him to be with his only love parvathy who is just waiting for him and born for him? will that sadhguru guide her make loka kalyanam to lord shiva and parvathy in the form of us in real life and spend those dreams in late nights and full days with kids, and will my son get relief that my mom is happy now with her man, not going through hardhsip anymore. Everything is left to GODDESS mother, o my beloved mother take care of us three me him and my son, you are my saviour and guide to the future. 

Reviews

[John the Baptist]

I don't usually review relationship poems, as they tend to reflect euphoria or depression, which are abnormal states of mind. Also, you write in the contemporary style, which I have difficulty understanding. I can see you have put a lot of effort and enthusiasm into this one, but because of my limitations, I don't think I could give it the review it deserves.

[JessyJacob]

never mind, ii just write, i dont know what style i am following, life is both euphoria and depression, thats how God balances it, otherwise you will not see fun and you will get bored, you should have both, good and bad one after other, happy and sorrow foloow eachother, but you should take both easily, if we live in comfort zone then you wont enjoy the real fun you will never achieve.