The Final Decision! Saturday 26 Feb 2022, A journey to Omnipresent!!

We are gonne be Happy at life after Death.

Yea I took pill today, I was not able to sleep, people were hitting on my head , I couldn’t sleep like 3.30 am. I just woke up, now time is 9.50am Saturday. Yesterday he was with me and promising that He will come for me, I believed him, today morning now he is saying marry someone else.

I cant survive and do job with pills, so I decided that I and my son cant continue our journey on this planet anymore. People may think why you are taking that decision. The reason is there is life after death also, and we both will be waiting for him and I don’t know whether he will come for me or not, you just cant say that I am not trusting him, I am just not hearing from him. But my heart will not replace with some else, it is how much I think of him. I just love him. He can come to me in this life also and take care of us, again he is changing his word. We are just cut shorting our life on this planet. Please don’t comment on y decision. I am doing right for me and my son, without him we cant live. If he cant keep his promise, I don’t know why he is giving those false promises.

I got this white lilies on valentines day for Putin, asking him to keep peace. I also wanted to give this flowers also  his past lilac, if I had hurted her in any way. He just cant bear if I say anthing to her, but I also don’t comment unnecessarily until she is hurting me. So please forgive me for stringent rules. The other person for whom i want to dedicate is his one of his best friends, Samraa(he calls him by that), he really do understand my depth of love to Him, thank you for whatvever you did for us, i was expecting some more also from you, i think that is not going to happen. 

Sorry I couldnt tilt this pic. 

I was thinking that he is trying to convince me that we cant get what we want. If that is the case, he could not have made serious decisions which made me to be in this situation , without husband and my son. It is whose mistake then. We do our karma which becomes our Fate, god is not writing our fate, he has given lot of options  to make choices and design our life. That’s what I believe and he too.

Finally I fixed a date  for departure from this earth, yes my son is visiting me in summer , I just need to get that pill which makes us to see ultimate God in few seconds. I am not doing wrong to my son, I cant leave him alone, He came for me to take care of me and its my responsibility too to take care of him. Please don’t misunderstand me.

Yazer I don’t have that much strength to lead my life without you, I just love you, hope you understand me.

I can take care of this planet with whatever I can at Himalayas with our spiritual Gurus along with my son.

I am just worried what Russia did yesterday to this planet, is it the world war, china going to north korea, Yazer atleast you take care of these innocents and stop this world war which just started.

With that I remain, again a nuclear bomb exploded my heart with his fake promise, yea it just exploded my heart and few more days to live.

I was thinking to write more about me and him, but I cant write, I am sick now. Time: 10.23 am Saturday 26 Feb 2022.

Author's Note

Please be positive in judging this chapter about me.

Reviews

[KAREN]

I agree with Kathy! Taking your life and your son's life is not the answer. Get help! I am praying for you!

[JessyJacob]

Hi Karen, don’t worry about me. I have clarity in my mind, things change so we are fine, not killing ourselves. You enjoy.

[KAREN]

Good, I'm glad things are better!

[KATHY SUE SILLS]

You do not need to kill yourself over a man! God would not want that! He wants you and your son to live! Seek help before taking your life and your son's life!

[JessyJacob]

Hi, Dont worry, I am not, Yea God doesnt want that, he is coming for us and will take care of us. Thank you for your note.

[KATHY SUE SILLS]

Glad to hear it! You are welcome!

[JessyJacob]

Thank you, please look at my other chapters and leave your note, it really helps me to feel how valuable i was to him and he was to me.