I wiped my eyes with my sleeve, which was looking pretty grubby
right now, and stood up. God, I needed a bath, shower, something. I felt
disgusting. I knew I looked disgusting. I could feel the grease in my hair from
sweat, and I could see the bloodstains on my dress. My feet were healed, but
they looked pretty nasty too. My nails looked bitten down to the cuticle,
although I didn’t remember biting them. I’d never bitten my nails before. Blood
speckled my hands, making me cringe. If I was inside my own mind, my mind
needed cleaning up. I gave my doll one last pat on the head before I made my
way to the next door, marked ‘Paranoia’. I knew this one was going to be
something I could relate to, because right about now I knew something was
watching me. I just didn’t have a clue as to what or whom was doing so. My slow
steps toward the door, which was a good few feet in front of me, did well to
relax me little by little. The more time I took getting to it, the more I could
compose myself enough to face the challenge inside. When I saw the door
starting to fade, I panicked. What on earth?
I started sprinting, screaming “Wait!” at the doorway as if it could hear me.
The more I ran, the farther it seemed to be! When I thought I couldn’t run
anymore, I noticed I was facing the door and it had stopped trying to fade from
existence. I panted, my lungs and throat burning from the effort, and I turned
the knob to force myself inside.
My senses told me that I was back home, and my eyes were lying to me. I felt
the door slam and warp behind me, and I was alone again. I freaking hated being
alone. When I looked around, I was facing my bedroom. My bedroom. No one
else’s, no monsters, just me and my collection of mutilated toys. I laughed, a
strange and evil sound that I’d never heard before. It sounded like something
out of a psychotic killer’s horror movie. It made me truly wonder what I was
turning into.
When I recovered from my devious laughter, I took a closer look around. I
walked toward my dresser, putting on fresh clothes. I felt so much better. The
next thing I sought were a pair of shoes, which I found in the closet. A pair
of ballet slippers, black and stretchy but tied, were in the far right corner.
I slipped them on and tied them to my ankles, knowing it would be a lot easier
to walk around in some places now. It wouldn’t work as an effective barrier
against acid bathrooms or nails in the floor, but most other terrain it would
have to do. I couldn’t wear tennis shoes or boots because they would slow me
down when I needed to run, and the dress had been slowing me down enough. I now
wore a pair of stretchy pants and a ragged t-shirt, complete with leather
gloves and a light jacket. I went over to my night-side table and picked up a
scrunchie, tying back my hair into a pony tail. Now my hair was out of my face,
I was in lighter clothes and I had shoes on. I just prayed all of this wasn’t a
dream, and that I could actually wear this in the other realms. I looked in the
mirror, a little more proud of how I looked. The jacket I wore was my favorite
one, and I’d always worn it even when I was in the White Room. I was getting
uneasy though, even with my favorite jacket on. This was all too easy, and
where was the challenge? I ran over to my bedroom door and locked it, nailing
boards from the bed onto the wall against it. This realm was familiar, but I
couldn’t put my finger on whether I’d been here before or not. Probably not, I
figured, since I didn’t even know I was paranoid until now. I could feel my
heartbeat picking up, and my breathing was becoming shallow. I was freaking
out, but I didn’t know why. I just knew, I could feel something was going to
pop up out of nowhere. I wrapped my arms around myself in a sort-of-comforting
hug and watched the closet door, then watched the window. I dug in my bag and
retrieved a real gun this time, which made me grin bigger than a Cheshire cat
could. I loaded it with the ammunition I retrieved, which was a grand total of
five bullets. I was a terrible shot, I knew, but this was all I had. I would
have to make it count.
Then I heard the footsteps again.
I knew it! I was screaming inside as I cocked the pistol, taking aim at the
door to my closet. As the footsteps grew closer, I could feel the beads of
sweat on my forehead start to go down my face. I clenched my teeth and narrowed
my eyes. That son of a street woman was going to feel my bullet, whether he was
ready for it or not. I backed into the door that I’d barred, probably a bad
idea because as soon as I did, I felt the sharp sting of something breaking the
skin in my neck. I winced and tried to move forward, but something was holding
me against the door. I kicked, screamed and threw punches, all to no avail.
When the invisible force decided to let me go, I fell to my knees on the floor.
I felt groggy and I couldn’t see; it was like clouds had gone over my eyes.
Booty juice, I thought to myself as I remembered the appropriately named
paralyzing vaccine that the doctors used to give to unruly patients at the
White Room. I knew the effects because I held the Room record for ‘most booty
juice administered in a week’.
I hated that week, kind of like I hated today.
When I turned around to face the door, he was standing there. The now-bloody,
very angry, and still-smiling doctor that I hated so very much to see. I aimed
my gun at his face as well as I could, but he grabbed my arm and twisted so
hard that I dropped it. The force of the gun hitting the floor must have set
off the trigger, because it blew a bullet into my very beautifully painted side
of the wall that I liked to draw on when I got bored. He seemed sickly calm,
almost maniacal in the way he spoke to me, and all I could do was growl at him
in rage and spit profanities that I’ll dare not repeat…mainly because I can’t
remember them. I couldn’t remember or make out what he was saying, either, but
I could feel the world swaying underneath me. I was going to pass out. Crap, I
was going to pass out.
Not this time, Dr. Needle-Happy.
I grabbed the syringe he’d dropped on the floor after he’d administered the
terrible medication through my veins and stabbed it into his leg, breaking off
the needle inside of his muscle. He yelled out in pain and called me a
profanity, slapping my face so hard I fell backward. I grabbed my gun and
staggered to my feet, getting dangerously close to not being able to function at
all. I hope you can hear me, I thought to my doll quietly as I took aim,
because I need you right now! I fired one round, which managed to hit him in
the other leg right in the kneecap. Another sound came from him, a scream, and
he doubled over onto his side. I heard something rip behind me, and my first
thought was that the doll’s stitches were coming apart. When I looked behind me
to check, the doll was no longer on my back, but standing on its own with a
butcher knife in its hand.
Oh, my.
“Follow me!” she said to me, extending her free hand. I took it, having to bend
over because of her height, and she led me to the closet. I remembered that my
closet was extended and shared space with the next closet, opening up to the
next room. I was suddenly thanking my mom for making me share closet space with
my big brother. We ran for what seemed like hours, the closet never seeming to
end until my doll took a sharp left turn, jerking me along. We went through a
void-like doorway, and before I knew it I was in my big brother’s room. His
metal band posters and all-black sheets didn’t seem as scary as they used to
be. My doll became limp and lifeless, and I picked her up to kiss her head.
“Thank you,” I whispered before putting her in my bag, reassuring myself that she
wouldn’t get lost that way. She was going to be my greatest treasure once I got
out of here.
I heard whispers through pretty much every nook and crack in the room, from the
window to under the bed. Some were in his voice, like he was whispering lyrics
to one of his ear-splitting songs, and some were in my sister’s voice telling
him to turn down the music, ask him where I was and such things. What sort of
spooked me though was there was no one in the room but me. I knew that the
doctor was in the other room, and I also knew that he was dangerously close to
getting what he wanted. He’d cornered me in that room, and the sheer thought
that he could do it again just as easy terrified me. I had been too careless,
and under no circumstance could I let it happen again.
I realized I’d forgotten my gun and cursed under my breath. I knew I couldn’t
go back in there, but I needed that gun. It seemed like the only hope I had to
defeating anything here. Then again, I still had the acid bubble gun and the
knife-sword-thing. I shrugged, figuring I could use those instead of the pistol
I so desperately wanted to hold again. It gave me a weird sense of power,
merely because I’d never seen or held one before. What also confused me was the
fact that even though I’d never seen or held one, I knew how to load and fire
it. TV shows? That was a possibility. Adults will tell you time and time again
that you don’t learn anything from watching TV, but just remember that they are
so very wrong. I learned how to use a knife by watching cooking shows when I
was a kid. Those same shows were the very reason I liked knives so much back
then, and probably the reason I ended up destroying things via knife frenzy.
When I managed to stop thinking about knives, I returned my thoughts to the
slow but steady sound of footsteps approaching. Holy crap, not again. I tried
to open my brother’s door to the hall, but it would not budge. Then I
remembered I’d nailed it shut like the last one. Not only that, but there was
absolutely no hope of getting out through the closet like I did. Holy crap
indeed. My heart hammered seemingly through my chest as I fumbled with the lock
on the window, only to remember that our mother glued all the windows shut to
keep us from opening them and letting dirt into our rooms when it was very
windy outside. I’d have to break the glass if I really wanted out that badly,
because there were no other doors and no other ways out. I could hide under the
bed, but that was usually the first place an attacker would look next to the
closet. I could throw a chair at him, but he could probably break it with one
punch! I was stumped and with the approaching footsteps getting louder, I knew
I would either have to kill or be killed in the end.
Then again, I had a freaky feeling he wouldn’t, and couldn’t, die that easily.
A sick feeling knotted in my stomach as I clenched a fist, then ran to my
brother’s desk. The chair was wooden, and just light enough I could pick it up.
I was tall for my age, which helped a lot because otherwise that chair would
have been bigger than me. I tossed it as hard as I could at the window and to
my twisted delight, shards of glass exploded onto the floor. I picked up as
many as I could, knocking out more glass with my fist as I tried to make a
bigger hole, and just as I heard the closet door open I started throwing glass
in that direction. Screams of pain and anger rewarded me with the knowledge
that I was an excellent aim with the shards. I clambered out of the window,
feeling bits of glass scratch against my back and pierce the skin, and dropped
once more into oblivion.
Did I mention that I hated falling into a big black hole that never seems to
end? Well, it might be useful information later on, because here I was falling
down, down, down into a void that seemed to spiral. It wasn’t like anything I’d
ever seen. Not even the other void I fell down in the Anger Realm came close!
It was both awesome and sickening at the same time. I saw so many things pass
by me -from newspapers to furniture- that I thought I was the living version of
Alice. A copy of our local newspaper was just about to pass by my ear when I
grabbed it, reading the headline. It was from 1987, when my mom was 20 or so.
The headline was smudged but the last few words were clear enough that I could
read them, and the paper itself looked like it had been thrown into a
fireplace. The rest of it was black except for part of a picture on the front
page underneath the ruined headline. It showed Mom and Dad when they were
younger, and it looked like they were together. When I got to reading the
headline, at least the part of it I could understand, I was shocked into a
state of pretty much just falling there holding the paper. The words ‘Asylum
Inmates Escape!’ were the only things that weren’t so smudged you couldn’t read
them, and the only words I needed to see. ‘Inmates’ was a bad word, like
friends in a prison cell. Was an asylum some sort of jail? I looked closer at
the picture again, this time at the background of the room. The small, 70’s
style TV on the nightstand table, and the metal bed with blank walls was all I
needed to see to confirm my worst nightmare.
My mom and dad had been in the White Room, too. At least, the white room I
remembered from the Fear Realm.
My feet finally hit the ground unexpectedly and I crashed to the floor below. I
hadn’t been paying attention since I read the newspaper, and I’m kind of glad I
wasn’t. When I looked up, I saw the remains of awful twisted bodies and
incomprehensible creatures squirming and writhing in midair. I half hoped they
wouldn’t come down, but at the same time I wanted to kill something. I was
infuriated…no. I was enraged. Why hadn’t they told me what an asylum was? Why
didn’t they explain that the White Room was a bad place? More importantly, why
did they let the doctors put me there?
Was it possible that they wanted me there? Did they want me to be like them?
I highly doubted it, but still the possibility remained.
I got up onto my feet and felt for my doll and the bag, which were both still
on me to my surprise, and started walking down a garden-like pathway. Before
long, I hit a dead end and had to retrace my steps. I had figured the reason
they called it the Maze Dimension was because there was at least one maze in
one of the realms, but lately it seemed like the entire thing was a maze
because I was always trying to find the right way out. I figured since this was
a real maze, it would be a heck of a lot easier to get out of. I felt around in
my bag for a flashlight, digging it out and flicking it on so I could get a
better idea of what was in front of me. A giant black widow’s jaws were right
in front of my face, making me scream in terror and start running. I hit
another dead end as the spider closed in, and I frantically dug in my bag again
for some kind of insecticide. I found the acid bubble gun and fired at its jaws
and belly, hearing it snarl and watching it writhe in pain, all the while
bringing me sadistic pleasure. I loved squishing spiders, but I also hated
spiders. I was probably known best for my arachnophobia, a big word that
actually makes sense to me being as how it means the fear of spiders.
As soon as I recovered from the attack of the giant arachnid I made my way to
the other side of the maze wall, finding what I was looking for which was a way
into another area. I’d tried crawling through the wall at some point in time, I
really don’t remember when, and had been rewarded with sharp thorns that almost
dug in my skin so deeply I couldn’t remove them. As I turned the corner and
entered the next area of the maze, I could just barely see a blue light
gleaming in the distance. If I made it through, I could find out what it was.
My curiosity was killing me at this point, quite literally, but I still went
with my idea to find out what it was. As I walked there had to have been at
least a thousand giant cobwebs that I passed by and had to burn down with the
acid gun, making me more confident that I could get past all of this without
any major problems. I weaved and wandered my way past every curve and corner,
occasionally hitting a dead end and having to retrace, until I was facing the
opening to the center of the maze. What had been glowing was a chest, chained
up and enchanted, with at least a dozen sleeping giant spiders surrounding it.
I was screwed if they woke up.
One, I had to get rid of the spiders without totally losing my mind. Then
again, I may have already lost my mind by that point. Two, I had to unchain
that chest. Three, I didn’t have a clue how I was going to do all of this! I
mean, come on! I hate spiders, so now I have to fight them? That had to be the
worst irony I’d ever heard of. I crouched down and was just about to dig in my
bag again for the acid gun when I found a staff laying at my feet. Knobby,
twisted wood that was warped into a foot-long walking stick with a clear ball
at the end looked like a pretty good whacking apparatus, so I picked it up. To
my delight it wasn’t that heavy, and to further spark my curiosity the ball
started to glow a fiery reddish orange. I loved the color because it was so
intriguing, but I’m pretty darn sure that was what bothered the spiders. I
heard hissing and the gentle thud of their giant legs hitting the ground while
they tried to get on all eight, ready to bite, poison and possibly devour
whatever had awoken them. Oh jeez, oh jeez, oh jeez, I kept thinking to myself
in slight instant panic as I kept looking from them to the staff I now held. It
started glowing more by the minute and also began to float, which I both
thought was cool and creepy at the same time. When it fired off an extremely
long, extremely bright stream of light at one of the spiders, disintegrating
it, I knew that this was going to be a very useful weapon. I grabbed hold of
it, grinning like a maniac as I kept firing off streams of burning light at the
spiders. “COME AND GET IT!” I screamed, laughing as I fired off at the last two
unfortunate arachnids, now having killed every enemy in my path. I made my way
to the chest, remembering the small shiny thing I’d pulled out of the skull of
the creature that had taken over Mrs. Haley. I pulled it out of my bag to
examine it, relieved that it was in fact a key. Maybe not the Key itself, but a
key nonetheless, and I could use it. I slid the end into the lock on the chest
and twisted, hearing a click and watched as the lid popped open. I smiled,
overjoyed that the key had fit, and looked inside of the mysteriously glowing
object inside…only to nearly barf my lungs out.
When a person says a chest usually means treasure, let me be the first to say
that they are very much mistaken. Inside this particular shiny chest was
various body parts, all still moving, blinking and writhing. It was like they’d
just been removed! Yuck! I was regretting having opened it when I noticed
something at the bottom of the pile. I grimaced, not really wanting to dig
through someone else’s body parts just for a coin or something. Still,
curiosity kills the cat as they say, and I was soon digging through the various
tongues, eyeballs and severed heads. I felt around the bottom, my eyes closed
and my nose turned upward to avoid the awful smell, and at first I didn’t feel
anything. I felt a little closer to the corner, and there it was. I grabbed
hold of whatever it was and yanked, pulling it completely out of someone’s fingerless
hand. I slammed the chest shut and shuddered in order to help pull myself
together and finally looked at the item I held. It was a small piece of a
heart, a metal key heart to be exact. I remembered that the key to the first
door, the door the Tree-it had led me to, was shaped like a broken heart and
the broken piece was missing. Was this the Key? I didn’t figure it was, but
still…it looked so familiar I couldn’t shake the nagging feeling that I’d found
something important. I started walking again until I found the end of the maze,
the very end, and the door that was wedged inside of the hedge.
I twisted the doorknob and entered the Hall again, but this time I didn’t go
into the very next door. I walked quite a ways for a while, just examining each
door. I saw words that I couldn’t pronounce but seemed familiar, and I saw
various creatures passing through from door to door. The Hall started to look
more like a hallway now, the walls were firm and a beautiful red wallpaper
covered them. The floor was wooden, the gentle light from the elegant wall
lanterns making the hallway have a sort of hazy glow. It was beautiful down
here. I smiled to myself, taking a short stop for a moment to rest and recoup
from all of the action of the past few hours…or days. I had no way of knowing
how long I was gone because there was almost no sense of time here, but that
also meant I could stay here as long as I wanted.
I really enjoyed that thought, but I think it was then that I started missing
my family again. I felt myself becoming partial to this world, these realms…but
at the same time, I knew I had a life outside of the Maze Dimension. I felt bad
for leaving my brother and sister behind because I knew they couldn’t follow me
in. They probably wouldn’t want to, either…well, my big brother might. He’s
into this creepy stuff, although I personally think he would have received a
lot more than he bargained for. I drifted to a state of calm, the hazy, dim
glow of the lights above me relaxing and just dim enough that I could fall
asleep for just a little while. I adjusted the bag and my doll, hugging her
close to me to make sure she couldn’t be taken away, and I drifted off into a
void state of sleep. I couldn’t dream, for some reason, but I probably figured
if I could that I would dream of this place.