I don't even f*****g know

March 1st, 2015

I've never wanted to die more than I do right now.
I've loved. I've lost. I've been tortured and I've done the same.

But I never loved the way that I loved you.

And I've never hurt the way that you hurt me.
I've never felt a pain so deep that all I want to feel is nothing.

I'd never wish that on anyone.

To think that I've done something

to make you disappear for good terrifies me beyond belief.

I can't stand the thought of you not being in my life.

You're everything I want.

Always have. Still are. And always will be.

I can't take this pain any longer.

I've never wanted to die more than I do right now.