I Miss You, Toto

I feel the most alone

In a room full of people who love me

"You'll never be happy"

You're right, mom

I probably won't

Because the one thing that made me happiest in this world was ripped away from me 

With my own hands

And now no bone in my body screams with excitement 

Nothing will ever compare to the way I felt in your presence

Truth be told

I could never commit to you

Because I knew you would be the man I would want to marry

And I was only 19 at the time

Not ready to experience something so perfect

I didn't want to be the one to ruin you 

Even though I did despite thinking I was doing the right thing

I miss you

Reviews

[Dexter-black]

Really good sis. Real good.

[ms. understood]

Thank you for the support!

[Paul Bell]

Why does wisdom come years later.
Was I wise at 19, probably not.
But life is always moving and regrets are still the same.

[ms. understood]

PREACH!!!!!

[LitStar]

this is sad

though very human


each word breathes a reality so many of us know

sometimes writing is the only way to truly heal from a difficult time

[ms. understood]

It is a difficult reality we all have experienced. Thanks for the support!

[LitStar]

most welcome

[jacob erin-cilberto]

so sad...and remind-ful to me of my high school sweetheart...that part of me that will always feel this way about her...and what i thought was doing the right thing at one time...
later came the regrets.
j.

[ms. understood]

It is a terrible feeling but we have to keep moving. Thanks!

[MarkAndTheOcean]

Very sad little poem, it's always hard living with the choices we make when they end up hurting us or other people in some way, especially when you grew older and you're not the same person you once was for better or worse.

[ms. understood]

Definitely a regretful choice to come to terms with

[Antoñyo]

This certainly hit a spot...HS sweetheart, many, many years ago. Thanks for sharing.

[ms. understood]

Thanks for the support!

[Chris]

We deal as best and only we can - with the consequences of choices ...ours and others.

[ms. understood]

Thanks for the support!

[Chris]

"...anytime"