The Jester

I hate that on-stage feeling

You know,

when you're up there in all your

fake

exposed

nakedness

PRETENDING to be something you're not

AFRAID someone will laugh

 

I feel like that when I'm

"flirting"

like it's a big joke that he'll just

laugh at.

 

That laugh that will shatter me into a

million tiny pieces.

 

Beacause really, who would WANT me?

 

No.

I'm much better off playing courtside

joker to my friends adventures

The ice-breaking fool

The so called "awkward buffer"

 

It's strange that it doesn't make me feel so

naked

when it's not for myself.

 

when it's for them, it's ok for him to laugh

at me

 

I keep the conversation going by being

the crazy, zany friend

Who always has/is the joke

Who can always leave 'em laughing

Who is in no way a threat to friends' cause

because really, who would find the

clown more attractive?

 

I know that I should be the one you want

I am better at making you laugh

than she is

 

She can't even speak

too nervous

but she's more pleasant to look at

 

But

that's all that you really want

isn't it?

 

So I guess I'm just S.O.L.