Justify

I hope this is the right one....

Night creeps into my window
And solitude is my only friend
I find that in my despair, darkness is my lover

I find my thoughts of you straying
When I surround myself with alternatives
Being without you frightens me beyond reason
But not to need you frightens me even more

My thoughts of you are scarce now
And it sickens me
My stomach sinks
My head decays
My soul dies
My very heart shrinks until I am cruel and without conviction...
As I realize that I might not need you

Your love might not have to justify me
And it scares me beyond reason

Author's Note

I think this is the poem that matches the reviews below... but I'm not entirely sure.

Reviews

[Creepy Swine Guy]

Is this the REAL fear that we feel when pining a lost love? Did we REALLY love them if we can live without them?

Great new perspective on a universal torment.

[Holly Abidi]

Hi,

Great poem. I love the message here. Again let me know if you'd like this in the poetry section of the website.

http://read.goldenprose.com/main_page/RP_mpage.htm

Great work!

Cheers
Holly

[Nihad Dweidary]

Here is the thing about love: you never know what it bears until you one day look at it in retrospect. ;-)

Love,

Nihad

[Jinx]

Does it NOT say in the description that you wrote it in high
school??? I won't put my high school poetry up 1) because
it's all about death and a non-existent love, and 2) because
I can't find any of it! ;p

Keep writing Jess! There's always someone who disagrees
with how you do things or what you say.

And truthfully, that opinion doesn't matter because it's
just that, an opinion.

[Shane Rendon]

Teen angst is a conduet to more realistic fealings, I love teen angst, but mabey that because I'm 18. The piece is easily realated to, if you're not close-minded to the where your emotions where born. Angst squeezed them right out of her gaping vagina. Lovely work, easily realated to. F**k what she says about angst. People eat that s**t up, and if it means something to you, then f*****g write it. "Stay away from teen angst", that means I cant be a writer for another year... BULL-S**T.
Keep on writing girl, and don't let opinions get you down.
-Shane
-Shane

[Jess Myers]

Stay away from high school poetry. It's too self-indulgent and angsty to redeem itself.

[Jinx]

Isn't it funny how reading all the beautiful poetry on this site makes you want to put up more? ;) I like this piece... I never knew about it, but I understand it.