Stay or Go

I feel like I'm trapped in some kind of sick joke.

It's like my body's too big for my skin.

But when I try to grow the world is too small and too lazy.

There's no where to go, and there's no where to stay.

I'm running in place all the time and in circles.

Can't I find someone who's looking for me?

 

Every direction there's people I'd like to be,

And others who are even more hopeless than me.

If I forget who I once was, and just greet the future,

Well then what does the past really mean?

 

I could throw all the memories to the back of my head

And slip all my promises in a box beneath your bed

I could toss my regrets out the window and find

My new future body and my new future mind.

 

Would you care if I forgot your face and your name?

Don't worry, you've already scored a spot in my heart.

Sometimes I hate that you always know you've got me

But running away, that's a stupid new start.

 

When you see me in the halls, though,

We both pretend to be nonchalant, and

Like all that we had was common and everyday

But you do know the truth like I do..

You must because I'd never felt that way

 

And it's that question again:

Move forward or retrace the devils steps.

They could lead to heaven

Or straight back to hell and heart break.