A letter that I've always meant to write.

To: The One Who Does No Wrong

Alan,

Do you remember? We always seemed to fit each other's mold.

How am I, you wonder? Well, I'm a stranger to you now. And you're stranger to me.

I knew you, didn't I?

Or was that make believe as well?

You can do no wrong. Everything is on me, now. Even the things you say, the things you do, it's me.

It's all me.

But, have you really ever experienced the rush?

To be so closed, but appear so charming, you've never felt it. Because you're shallow as a dinner plate.

I felt it.

I felt it with you.

But after all, six months is much too long to care for someone, right?

I was a hassle, a burden for you then.

I didn't mean to be.

I won't lie, it's been hard since you.

But that chapter's finally coming to an end.

Tracing through chopped memories can really spark a change of heart.

I found that you're not the greatest thing that's happened to me.

Your lines were cliche and old.

I took them, though, like I was born to be decieved.

Mistake number one.

But seeing you in retrospection, give me a new sense of hope.

That maybe I didn't lose the best thing I could have.

You were amazing, but now I'm clearly different.

And I see you for who you really are.

And that's not for me.

But, you go. Find your way.

I do have a hope for you.

You are a part of me, you know.

And I hope you find someone to love you as much as I did.

And you love her too. For all the right reasons.

Don't fall away, she'll fall apart.

Because you are like a drug.

I can't say I don't love you, but I can't say I do.

I've set you outside of my head.

And I don't need you now.

 

Goodbye for real this time.

Reviews

[gravitylava]

I really like this. I'm sure we've all felt this way, and it's nice to see people dealing with the pain in productive ways. I love the honesty in this, and the way you are so calm. You don't put the blame on anyone, and you show that you have accepted what has happened. You are very wise despite being only 14. Great writing.
-michelle

[Leap]

Very good. I'm sure it feels nice to write that down, if it's based on reality. "you're as shallow as a dinner plate." - love that line.