Where's the Eye?

Why can't I be beautiful like the others? Why am I so alone? Draw me into Your arms and give me the words to search and find. Comfort me, help me, please, help me! Hold me together before I break. Too much light, not enough darkness but don't you know the darkness scares me? Don't make me say goodbye to my poison, it feels so good but it's slowly killing me inside. Let me live in this hell I've made for myself for I think I want to stay, I think this is where I belong but what if I'm wrong? What if everything I think is wrong? I stay alive for the future show me what I have to hold on for. Help me start new, help me end my poison, pull it out of my veins. But what if this very poison is what is keeping me alive? My poisonous life line. Toxic demon or angel? Show your true face, let me see our future burn the past and everyone in it. Help me be numb but what if I want to love? Left or right up or down? Will I survive? Who am I anyways? Why can't anyone see me? Let my true side show and end them all.