California (lyrics)

Well, I want to scream how I'm feeling
but I'm not even sure that it's true
so I'll hold it deep within myself forever
and keep it far away from you.
You know that I can't recall meaning
in all the things I thought that I knew
but this faulty memory like newspaper clippings
thinks only of my time with you.

And I'm afraid of everything
but I know you feel this, too.
California sings my name
but the only reason I'm coming back is you.

Well, you're nearly certain you're dying
and I'm half convinced I'm not real
and I cannot give you all that you desire
but that doesn't change how I feel.
I wish I could tell you that I'm not
afraid to be hurt, to hurt you
but I would rather you break me to pieces
at least I would feel something new.

And I'm in love with everything
and I know you feel this, too.
California sings my name
but the only reason I'm flying home is you.

Most of the time my head's spinning
and my words they just don't come out right
but the silence I share with you means more than speaking
and nothing feels good...but it might.
I'll stand by your side forever
in everything that you do
and I hope someday beauty will find you and make you
as happy as I am with you.

And I believe in everything
and I hope you feel this, too.
California screams my name
but the only reason I'm coming home is you;
the only reason I'm not dying now is you;
you are the reason and I'm coming back for you.