My Mad Imaginings

Many things I told you

I spoke without delay

But I spoke too roughly

And frightened you away

 

Many nights I laid with you

I dwelt upon your mind

I thought I knew your heart my dear

But my wisdom, it was blind

 

I ran with you and sang my songs

We flew o'er mountains high

We ran with love and fate alike

And the river, it rushed by

 

Fanciful was my young heart

not your fault, but mine

Ill timed were our measured steps

I thought your eyes so fine

 

I knew you as a child in school

You were different then, my love

Both untouched by pain and lust

Like two white virgin doves

 

But children must grow up and hurt

And anguish, harm, and hate

Never-land is far away

and the dark night creeps on late

 

The rushing wood where once we played

Is dead and turned to dust

In place of velvet, living flowers

We cultivated lust

 

Where diamond waters once did flow

Bitter poison turned my eyes

And from you, took my innocence

Which you left between my thighs

 

I woke and found, most horrible

Through the darkness I fell; I fall

In my mad imaginings I dreamed you

For my dear, you never existed at all