what you left me with

"it's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all..."

 

i sit here alone

i try to pass the time that i no longer get to spend with you

i miss the days when i was free to say

"darlin, i l will always love you"

regardless of what happened and the hurtful words you said

my mind is constantly justifying it all

i apologize for the wrong things i never even did

i changed the things i like to do

in an unsuccessful attempt at trying to please you

i forgot who i was trying to be the person you wanted

i did everything i could

way more than i should

until it released the insanity that arose from within

you held my head under water until i could no longer breathe

but i stopped fighting back

unsure of whether it would be easier to live

or die

as my mind diminished, my spirit grew strength

don't be deceived

i miss you like crazy

you appear to invade my every thought

my heart is incomplete

holding only the memories in place of where yours once held it together

as the warm tears fall from my eyes

i close them

and yet again i am with you

releasing the pain and resentment 

simply explaining to you

the ways in which you helped me remember

who i am

 

Reviews

[Her Beautiful Melanchol..]

Very beautiful. I feel the words. I can read this peice over and over and still feel the same pensive mood it left me the first time I read it.

[Jason]

That greatest poem of all in my opinion is a lost love. So many emotions! Great job.

[Angel's Lady]

i forgot who i was trying to be the person you wanted - Wow, I can so relate to this line! This was my last relationship in a nutshell! Very beautifully and soulfully written! Excellent job!

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

A very poignant piece of writing... in relationships we do tend to lose who we are in order to please the one we love but then they end up loving us for something we are not or even leaving for something we are not... Besides someone should love you for who you are or it isn't really love... sometimes it's easier said then done.

[EvesDaughter]

I think love is real when
you can BE the person
you are without having
to change yourself in order
to please the other. You
have written a wonderfully
introspective piece on the
dynamics of a relationship
and what you learned....
bravo, my friend ;)