i cried at work today

yeah it happened today

it sucks... and for those of you that have not realized the gift of pms you won't 'get it'.
lately, and by 'lately', i mean the last year...i am a soldier and a explorer... where my own odd, angst-ridden emotions are concerned.  having been a telecommuter for 7+ years, i could be as maladjusted and ill-conformed as i ever desired to be.... but that all changed last year when i moved back in to cubicle land.

i am a paranoid, self-proclaimed mind reader and diviner of souls.  i know what i know.

that look, that phrase... don't bother.. I KNOW what you really meant by that

multiply that x 500 and you have me in my pms time

day to day is so f*****g hard in the office.  when on day one through 35 the VP 'deb' thinks you are the absolute bomb... but from day 36 to 492 won't meet your gaze... life in the office gets kinda freaky

so, i have managed.. 19 days out of the month i am ironic, philosophical, generous, not too ambitious, happy, humble and hard to crumble

but there are those other days...like this one

'just have her reprocess it'...

after 6.5 minutes of explaining... 'what shemeantbydoingthiswayisbecause'

staring at the screen

counting onetwothreefourfiveeightseventwofivesixnineoneten blink blink blink

tears

'are you ok?'  'hmm ok' 'seriously, are you alright, jenny?' blinknodblinknodblinknod

flowflowflowsniffcoughflowsniffgasp

fuckitsucksbeingawoman

Reviews

[marjorie noble]

why is it so damn hard? the debs of the word predominate. the thing is, most of us are someone's deb. that's the advantage of teaching--you don't have to guess--the kids tell you that you suck, because you are their deb.

[BLACKCRUSH]

Your f*****g right ! that is being a woman, don't hold it in ......I love you. This poem is so essential because it shows what women have to constantly deal with even when were at are weakest mentally and physically. I love you, you are so strong.

[Creepy Swine Guy]

I don't know how you women manage with those "emotions run amok". My emotions send a memo to my brain asking for permission to come "on deck" before they make an appearance. Ahhhh sometimes it doesn't suck to be a man.

[jen]

yeah, for real... but as they say, 'this too shall pass' and then return 21.75 days later... am already feeling better... writing always helps :)

[-Aurelia Mirella]

Oh my...

I do hope you feel better. PMS is not very fun. :/

Best wishes,
-Aurelia Mirella