Chapter One

Sapphire Evergreen kills herself.

 

   Running.
   That's all I can do now.
   I'm running from everything, my family, my friends, my life.
I'm living the life of a nobody. Nobody cares about me, nor will they ever. Not even my parents care about me. The place I'm running to? My simple, no feeling, peaceful death. I've been planning this for awhile... and I'm ready. I won't be a coward like the other times. If I don't do this, the reason for living will be very slim.
   The forest around me is dense, and cold. It's hard to run, from all the heavy clothing I've got on. Maybe it's just me, maybe I should stop. Maybe, I'm just acting ridiculous. No! I'm not, keep running.  It's getting lighter, I can feel the sunshine again.
   My destination isn't far now, my death is arriving. Almost there...
   That's when the weakness begins, the cowardliness. I feel a tear slip down my cheek, to my lips and off my face. It's burning me, and then more fall. My face is on fire.
   But, then my plan comes. I'm here, I'm at the end. The cliff of depression, I call it. I used to come here when my parents fought, before the divorce. I cried all night here, and my mom always knew where I was. She never worried about me running away. She knew I had a place to get away. But, she didn't know that coming here, wasn't getting away. It was thinking about everything, the divorce, my invisibility at school, my depression, hence the name of this place. 
   I take minscule steps, toward the edge of the cliff. I'm careful not to fall over, just to take a peek at the waves beneath it. The waves are pretty rough and are enough to tip over a sailboat. That's perfect for this endeavor, just what I need. Not being able to swim will help too.
   When you think about it, drowning is a very peaceful way to die. There is no sound, and you vision is blurred. This way is better than cutting myself, or using a weapon. I don't want blood in my process of dying, it would be too painful, and very violent. Then I though of hanging myself. That was impossible, it would be painful, and a horrible scene for my mother. I mean, my mother doesn't care about me in the least bit, but, if she saw me hanging, that would hurt her.
   So, drowning was the best way. She would think I ran away, but, I would really be at the bottom of this lake. The only hard part of this were two things. The first, if I could actually have the guts to jump off the cliff or not. The second, the impact of me hitting the water. Out of those two, the second was the hardest. 
   I sat down on the edge of the cliff, my feet dangling. No fisherman, or boaters were to be seen. That was good, if someone were to see me jump, they may try to save me. I don't want to be saved, then I would have to be put in a suicidal clinic or something.
   I stood back up, and took a look down again. I'm going to chicken out of this. I'm going to go home and live my miserable life again.
   No! No! No! Stop this, just jump! Get it over with, and die already! Then, I took a deep breath, turned around, because I didn't want to see what was coming before me, and froze. I need to say one last phrase, one that is meaningful, my last words.
   "This is the end. The peaceful, last breaths of my life. No more of the yelling, teasing, or hate. Finally, I'm free." I said, "I'm free."
   I fell back toward the water, the air was rushing against my back, I was so fast. Above me was now a cloudy sky, instead of the sunshine I saw before. Then, the punch in my back. The crack of my spine, the impact of the water. It hurts so much, I can feel a gash on my back. The water is making it sting so much, it feels like the worst pain I've ever felt. I was going deeper in the water, I could feel it. The breath I took, was running out, and the next second, it was gone. All I could breath in was water now, and I wasn't about to do that.
   This was the end. The end of my lousy life. Through all this pain happening to my body, I am happy. This wasn't as half bad as going through anymore of my life. This, was better.
   My body was dying as I sank deeper through this water, and after a couple seconds of this pain, I saw the end.

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Author's Note

Ignore grammar, past, future, and present tense, and mechanics. Review only the plot, conflict (if there is one so far) and so on... Thanks!

Reviews

[Herzeleid]

Interesting first chapter. Would be interested in reading more. Plot is rather intriguing already.

[Chahklat]

If this is Chapter One, it makes me wonder how the following chapters will develop. It's quite intriguing for the first chapter. I like the first person narration. It makes me feel as if I'm seeing it through their eyes, in their head.