The Depression Collection Part 1: Have I got a deal for you?

 

 

I’m bored

In need of a distractive (destructive) action.

A reflective glance that could lead to

Satisfaction.

I want to take a strong stance

Against my brains’ faulty assumption

That I need something illicit to cure this restless compunction,

My reluctance overrun by arrogance

And energy without purpose creates irritation.

 

Dopamine deprived mush tells me

Things I could do,

Things I don’t want to do,

Nasty sarcasms there are no need to say.

Why does it never suggest

Morality? Integrity? Sobriety?

Why justify my Hyde side?

Why does it lie?

Wicked mind, like a salesman,

Door to door with steak knives and over-priced vacuums!

Flirting, amusing, gently arguing, flattery, til it gets the foot in!

Only needs one timid ‘Yes’

The barest of consents,

Then as par for the course, fleeting excitement leads to buyer’s remorse.

The price is always too high for me to afford

But there is no retreat once the contract has been endorsed

By my feeble ‘X’.

Blood in my pen.

 

Now I’m ashamed once again.

So I’ll wallow in Depression and Self-Hatred til those destructive b******s have had their fill.

And silently, in the void that’s left…

Boredom creeps

And saps my will,

With the same eternal question.

 

 

Reviews

[Sharon L.H. Kelly]

A very powerful, raw, and introspective write. Well done, Poet.

[closed]

perhaps the darkest spiral in introspection
very creative

[Haley Wilson]

Dark, suspenseful, and somber. Which is why I adored it. Many people could relate to this, as I do. Keep up the fabulous work, doll!

[Jayne Disdaine]

Thanks hun appreciate the feedback and its nice to sometimes have confirmation that we are not alone in being imperfect. Xx

[M.A.Rathore]

Good. I read it. You are really so bored that you need to recollect yourself with freshness of life giving vitality..Thanks for sharing your mental make up at the time of boredom...

[Skai Rain]

Very depressing, but very raw and true. I can relate to this. Keep up the fantastic epicness that is your work.

[Jayne Disdaine]

Thank you Brit you always make me feel good about writing and are just a bit inspirational to me in your own :)

[ThackeryBinx]

That was sad and well written. My favorite line was the way you said "Dopamine deprived mush" instead of brain. That's the way I feel sometimes. Sometimes when I deprive myself of laughter I replace it with exercise. Thank you for the read.

[Jayne Disdaine]

Thank you for the review.

[Jayne Disdaine]

I really appreeciate the feedback and empathy :)

[Nitesh Mahabal]

very interesting n difficult subject. but well written. and my mind runs with same thoughts some of them. i dont really know how to jolt them down. u did it wonderfully maam.

[C. Lee Battaglia]

Its awesome so far!
Keep it up!!!

C. Lee Battaglia

[Jayne Disdaine]

Thank you x next installment coming soon!

[C. Lee Battaglia]

Your so welcome!
Check out my newest writing, I think you would like it.