I'm all at Sea

A vacant stage, a fresh empty stage, overcorrected prepped to berate.

Prison with bars, cot, but no locks that’s somehow still can keep you caged.

There’s options my friend, you’d be amazed,

You can walk on in Bliss or walk out enraged.

If you picked the route of madness, and why not? The plans have long ago been laid "

Its suicide but that’s the goal, as steps extend to your lonely grave.

 

Life, I screwed up. Hurt and pain.

Most people out for meaningless personal gain

Most driving and striving to reinforce their own brand name.

Those type don’t give a damn if it drives you insane

But lover, there are some who dare to entertain

That your offerings to the world, kindness, heart, ideas pure and raw should not be restrained!

 

I know I’m speaking the obvious, but self-hate will destroy all well within you.

Please listen hear me indulge my rantings - they are not empty flattery but rock solid TRUTH

I picked you from a host of thousands, how can you say the real you I never knew?

I sensed from the start and with knowledge my belief in you only grew.

No regrets, joy as I’ve finally found the other half of my crew.

Together we can brave any storm; alone it’s too much for any sea weary girl to do.

 

Like every day, tomorrow, we start afresh.

Re-enacting ancient strategies to ward off thoughts that anger, destroy, depress.

Reoccurring issues, consistently learning, how to address, readdress, and address.

Just a little faith, a little farther now, we're closer to regaining some mutual respect, implementing tenderness.

Just a little time to step back and take a guru's breath,

Before we embark on our next undetermined quest.

Arms locked undefeatable, whilst we’re united with checker plate strapped on our out-puffed breasts.

 

We can step off at our end so bitter, and I know,

We won’t have much in way of gilt edged, guilt-ridden assets…

But sweetheart I simply cannot impress,

 

If I lost you, in a split second, an arrhythmic heartbeat Id suddenly have less,

Feel less, be less,

I could care less, I’d probably regress.

In a year from now I know you wouldn’t be impressed,

by me, but you’d be hard pressed, my personality become something you can no longer accept

I think I would become cold, callous, revolting you like cess.

A pool of squalid stench, not worth half the earth's bounty it greedily ingests to excrete its vulgar worthless mess.

No longer fit to tread this empty stage that was once filled with possibilities,

No longer will I be bothered to try to break out.

That’s me there, now alone and damaged in your old empty cage.

It’s me then marking time, if love departs, death awaits

 til I’ve finished prowling around!

No remorseful last quotes stemmed from misery, loss and rage.

No one to understand, no one gets it, gets me, no one but you could empower me in my end of days.

 

How did you think I would be, living sparsely, but rich and safe with you, my crew,

Til fate operates on my soul leaving shards I can’t repair with glue?

Took you and left me purged and punctured, broken and unremarkable.

I’m ready for my fall if I’m to be fighting without you but

As our understanding grew and love not lost becomes renewed, I know with patience we will have all we need to see this thing through 

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

The poem is amazing.
"Like every day, tomorrow, we start afresh.
Re-enacting ancient strategies to ward off thoughts that anger, destroy, depress.
Reoccurring issues, consistently learning, how to address, readdress, and address.
Just a little faith, a little farther now, we're closer to regaining some mutual respect, implementing tenderness."
The poem was honest and direct. I like the realistic tone of the poem. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Jayne Disdaine]

I appreciate your comment very much, I am so sorry for the delay in responding.

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome.

[Sami Khalil]

"Life, I screwed up. Hurt and pain.
Most people out for meaningless personal gain
Most driving and striving to reinforce their own brand name.
Those type don’t give a damn if it drives you insane
But lover, there are some who dare to entertain"

Some very good lines to quote. Thank you for sharing your pen...:).......................

[Jayne Disdaine]

I have only just recently come back online and have only just noticed your wonderful review. Thank you :)

[Sami Khalil]

Ok. No problem. You are welcome....:))))

[ddinok]

beautiful thought process.....enjoyed reading from the start till the end...

[Jayne Disdaine]

Thank you so much

[JD Jessop]

Amazing, heartfelt desire to save the other half of your crew. There is more to this than just a poem. I can totally relate. You greatly portrayed the yearning of a loving soul trying to convince the other half that they are valuable, loved and that the gaping hole their loss would bring would devastate and render hollow those around them........especially the writer. Outstanding job here.

[A. Amos]

You understand life on a different level...this was brilliant!

[Asb]

Very good creation
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I can relate to every line
Awesome lines.....


Peace !
Asb