I Hate Myself Too

I may be complex, as anyone else, but that is and always will be our commonality...we all hate me.

I hear you.

I hear you

And all your friends.

I hear your rumors

And I hear your laughter.

I see you.

I see you

And all your friends.

I see your buzzing gossip

And I see your darting eyes.

I feel you.

I feel you

And all your friends.

I feel your burning glares

And I feel the weight of your words.

I know.

I know

You all want to cut me with those sounds,

You want to carve me with those sights,

And you want to gut me with those feelings.

You want to see me drop my books,

You want to see me on my knees,

You want to see me in my lowest state,

But mostly you want to see me cry.

You want to think that you have broken me,

Got me all figured out,

But none of you are anywhere near that smart,

And it will take more than that.

You hate me.

I know you hate me.

I hate you too.

The only difference?

I don't give two s***s.

I forgot how to break down

Just because of some bullying

A long time ago.

And you know what?

The thing is,

I really just don't care at all.

Know why?

I hate myself too.

Reviews

[Riding the Rainbow]

This is a very powerful piece and very true..
The pain inside of it it's something I remember..But in the end, I was not strong enough..I had to ask for help..

[Riley Bray]

Thanks and I understand. I'm the opposite though. I let people know I'm sad but I'd rather not go into detail with it with them. Them being the people in real life anyway, since strangers just seem to be easier to open up to.

[Riley Bray]

No strings attached...

[Tai Ryens]

Self-loathing is a universal aspect of humanity, no matter how darling the person. All of us just deal with said hatred differently; some convey themselves into others, some might take it upon themselves for distraction, others might be hardened. 'Tis why I am so fascinated in human consciousness; the varying abilities to deal with pain are different with every person.

[Riley Bray]

Always so intellectual, my friend. Thanks for the review. :)

[Salar Majak]

(I forgot how to break down
Just because of some bullying
A long time ago.
And you know what?
The thing is,
I really just don't care at all.
Know why?
I hate myself too.)

to actually give them a reason to stop, damn Riley, you were good but now you are even better!
i adore the way you put your poems together, and that last part just blew my mind off
kudos!

[Riley Bray]

Thanks Aurora. :)

[UseMeAbuseMeCureMe]

I love the bitter anger in this, it shows how bullying affects different people. Some people it turns suicidal and others,,,they become hardened by it. Awesome piece :)

[Riley Bray]

Thanks Unheard.