Beautiful Pictures of Sadness

They think me stupid.

You should have seen me that night,

Not two weeks ago,

Where sitting near the fire that allowed flames to dance in my vision,

I cried.

With embers burning in my limp hair,

And emotions I thought I'd left behind choking me slowly,

In front of a man I barely knew,

Who understood.

He was a man messed up himself,

With drugs and domestics in his history,

And a long reputation with taking advantage of women,

A heavy metal rocker who held depression of his own,

But of the kind people shunned,

For fear of the rumors alone.

But I understood him,

And forgave him of his sins,

As he did me and mine,

So we sat, and I shared my pain, all my pain, for the first time in a long time.

He didn't question me or put me down,

He didn't tell me lies about how it will get better or how I should be optimistic

He didn't tell me to share this with my friends and family, or anything of the sort,

He merely held me, and we regaled together.

That night, just an innocent, lighthearted night,

Turned into a scar along my throat,

Where words seared my self control,

And secrets spilled.

The others, those that didn't understand believed me seduced,

Thought me weak enough to fall for the adonis they all thought they knew,

Loathed, or plainly looked down on,

And they laughed at my foolishness, as we, he and I, scoffed at theirs.

An extraordinary night,

Where I remember seeing the moon suspended,

And stars peppering the space, lone, empty, and void,

Just two weeks ago.

Author's Note

Let me just say that this man is a friend, no more.

Reviews

[Tai Ryens]

This brings back a philosophy I once read; destiny may call for two people to fully understand one another, although the two don't necessarily require to be lovers. They can be simply friends that are trusted, and that you may confide in whenever. I quite enjoyed this.

[Riley Bray]

Thanks. ^^

[K. Louis]

I felt the emotion here. The last stanza left me somber..but a good image there nonetheless.

[Riley Bray]

Thank you very much. :)

[K. Louis]

you're welcome!