Forgotten Princess

Had a friend basically tell me they longer wanted me in their life. I tried to wrap my head around it and this is what came of it. A mess I am sure.

I sit here and I struggle to find the words to say,

To describe how I feel in a meaningful way.

The words I come up with are hollow to me,

they fail to convey the shadow encompassing me.

The world now feels like a much darker place,

I can no longer hold back the sadness from my face.

The want and the need to not let this bother me,

is a struggle people looking in will never see.

I feel as though being strangled by this unforeseen rejection,

I’m gasping for air, but it feels like a fleeting expression.

You don’t know what you’d do without me,

Were the words you’d utter repeatedly.

I was always there for you, even when it was hard for me,

You were my best friend, you happy was all I wanted to see.

He came along and has now taken you from my life,

You get upset and sad, when you tell me he won’t have you as a wife.

He makes you feel like something is wrong with you,

I tell you over and over, that simply isn’t true.

But the more and more I speak, my words fall silent,

You fail to hear me, or just choose to deny it.

The truth is hard, not just anyone can say what they see,

Nope, there is only one person, your best friend, me.

At least I thought that was the case before last night,

Something changed in you, you didn’t seem right.

The normal composed person was no longer there,

you were speaking to me in a way that honestly gave me a scare.

Closure, you tell me you want closure. But he won’t give it,

I wish I knew what inside you broke, and won’t let you move past it.

He has a power over your emotions that clearly baffles me,

But he doesn’t want you, yet you cling like ever so desperately.

Did he provide you something you felt you were lacking?

Your relationship is over, but you won’t let go, you’re cracking.

Whatever it is that needs to happen in order for you to find happiness,

I hope you find it, I truly do. Because this thing has led to one hell of a mess.

You always told me I could be honest with you, and tell you anything,

Why is it when I actually do, you throw me aside like I’m nothing?

You told me this too ends our relationship as friends,

When I read those words I thought it was pretend.

There is no way she will throw away three years of friendship,

over a relationship with a guy I’d call a sinking ship.

Yet even though I disagreed with him as her choice,

I supported that decision and hid my voice.

When I couldn’t take hearing about the drama of the relationship unfold,

I sounded off, told you how I felt, what I thought. I got cold.

I said what needed to be said, and in doing so,

I lost a friend. You made the choice to set me aside and tell me to go.

A hole has formed in my heart from hearing you say such things,

Nothing I have found has taken away the sting.

The person who I treasure the most to me is lost,

Saying my peace was liberating but it came at a heavy cost.

She was my world, my calming force that helped me be more,

That just makes it hurt even more.

I don’t want to have this overtake me, I don’t want to obsess,

to me you are a forgotten princess.

You can live your life in your tower of regret, it’s better that way,

you obviously don’t need friends like me to be real, no, we just get in the way.

Author's Note

Review if you like, your thoughts and opinions are always appreciated. It's a mess of emotions and I need to clean it up still. but wanted to share while it was still fresh.

Reviews

[WillaDanvers]

The choice of words chosen to colour the way you feel is simply brilliant. I could feel the emotion poured into the words, into the structure. - Keep this up :)

[Bumpkin_Diaries]

Well, I dont know who you are or who anyone else is but I can feel the emotion in this poem. You've expressed the way you feel in a great way here. Well done. Also, if you ever feel worse, wright another poem, or short story...A story might be better as you can include dialog and get your thoughts out of your head.

[Joshua McNay]

Thanks! I am sure I will write more about this as I am still trying to figure it all out. Thank you for the review.

[Bumpkin_Diaries]

Well I hope you eventually do (don't let it get you down)! You're welcome.

[Stan Lee]

A mess of emotions indeed. Nobody likes hearing that they're wrong. Breath deeply, your words may sink home yet. A mess of emotions but skillfully woven into a poetic tale. Well done & thanks for sharing with us Josh. Hope things get better soon.

[Joshua McNay]

Thanks, it's hard right now given the person I tell everything to just tossed me aside. But head held high I will find a way. Thanks for the review.