A ReflectionA Poem by Joshua McNayWoke up great today. Let's change it up!I woke up today with a sense of determination, I don’t know what it was but something clicked in place. Almost like my brain was done with preparation, I swear you could almost see the drive on my face. I looked in the mirror as I often do, But this time was different, I didn’t see hate. I saw myself for the first time without a clouded view, It was like my brain said “no!” to my inevitable fate. “Today will be different!”, I said to me, At first I admit, it was hard to believe. I’ve said that some many times, I thought “yeah we’ll see”, But as I looked in the mirror, the sadness started to
leave. For so long, I put so much weight on what others thought, I felt I wasn’t worth it, like I wasn’t good enough. They sold me a way to feel and I just bought, Hook line and sinker, the way I felt was rough. So when I felt the sadness drain, it was unreal, Having felt so poorly on myself for so long. Twisted thoughts brought on by how I feel, In the back of my mind, I knew…I knew it was wrong. A new track in the playlist of the life of Josh, As Britney would say “better work b***h!”. An upbeat track my old sadness can’t squash, I am so happy I finally have that spark, that itch. It had eluded me for reasons, I am sure are lies, But it hit me like a truck, enough is enough. My happiness means something to me, I have try, It doesn’t matter how I do, just to start is enough. An old saying, I remember I am trying to use as a motto, You don’t have to be great at the start, but you have to
start to be great. It has new meaning to me, no longer are the words just hollow, I choose to be great, I am giving myself a blank slate. © 2015 Joshua McNayAuthor's Note
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4 Reviews Added on December 11, 2015 Last Updated on December 11, 2015 AuthorJoshua McNayGrand Junction, COAboutI write about a Little Red Fox, I hope you enjoy his adventures as much as I do! Thanks for stopping by and as always thank you for reading! Featuring art by Emily Chan, be sure to check her work o.. more..Writing
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