Pondering

Just lost in thought

I sit and try to put pen to paper

I wish my ideas would flow like Don Draper

Too bad I am more madman, then mad men

My ideas come at a feverish pace

Trying to write them all down, I’m losing the race

I think they are all fascinating

More often than not I’m just procrastinating

Instead of focusing like I know I should

I get lost in it, and it does no good

One singular idea, one concrete plan

It should be easy, so what the hell man?

That’s the thing, it’s not really a “block”

It’s a mental prison where I take stock

Of all the things around me

The sadness, the beauty, encapsulates me

The flow of words at times feel stilted

Like a flower, my petals have wilted

 

A fresh take, a different outlook

If I don’t how will I ever finish this book?

Whatever it was that brought my creativity

Has been taken a little too easily

I will fight to keep light from burning out

I write now filled with an odd sense of doubt

What if my works aren’t good enough?

Are my collected works up to snuff?

People say the kind words, and bolster me

Yet I have this shred of doubt about me

I could be narcissistic and arrogant about it

But I admit my confidence has taken a bit of a hit

Inside I know I can do this, but it still lingers

Even as the words start to flow from my fingers

I am often at peace when I write

Once in a while though, it sinks and doesn’t feel right

 

Did I share too much?

So enraptured with this I forget your touch

A calming sensation you were to me

I feel my ambition has taken you away from me

The doubt I feel is coupled with regret

I can’t stop now, no, I am not finished yet

I hope you will understand in time

The need I have to share my rhymes

To overcome the fear and all the doubt

It will make you scream and most likely shout

It’s ok, please, let it all out

I want you to be a part of this

Whether it’s a hit or a big miss

You will make or break my attitude

I owe a lot of my work to you

If you stick by me and be at my side

I know I can handle this uneasy ride. 

Author's Note

Please feel free to review if you like or don't I love hearing your thoughts of my work. Thanks.

Reviews

[jesserose99]

So relatable to many of us writers I think. you have a strong ability to craft many words that I envy as I am a short worded lass. I love it though, just not where my ability lies. I have to live vicariously through poets like you!

[Ashley Arita]

Very cunning poem. I liked the comparisons between people and other objects. Liked the whole story also. Great job!

[Joshua McNay]

Thank you. I am happy you liked it.

[A hare off]

I liked this. Sometimes we get so lost in what we are trying to write we forget what or who inspired us in the first place. "Too bad I am more madman, then mad men" Loved that line.

[Joshua McNay]

Thank you I am glad you enjoyed it. I still feel lost after this but its helping. Thank you for the review and glad you liked that line. As soon as I wrote Don Draper it came to me.