Grudge

Written 2/26/2011. First thing I have actually written in a while. Let me know what you think. It's about my relationship with my brother, or lack thereof.

I shouldn't care what you think. 

You won't even hear what I have to say. 

Maybe it's just better off that way. 

I hurt in ways you probably won't understand. 

I tear up whenever you come to my mind. 

I don't know if this is quite what you planned,

But a brother in you is something I can't find. 

I dreamed of having this strong connection

But blood is our only common ground.

I'm tired of feeling your constant rejection. 

I can't imagine why I still want you around. 

You're too busy for a simple hello,

That much you made perfectly clear. 

One day I may not hold you quite so dear. 

Brother, you're in no way perfect.

You have no right or room to judge. 

Maybe I'm not the one with a defect. 

What did I do to deserve this grudge? 

I'm not the child that you thought you knew. 

I've grown and become a better person. 

You forget that I have feelings too.

Let's not let our relationship worsen.