Beautiful Understanding

Summer of 2006.

You think you know me but you don’t.

And yes, I have things that I don’t tell you,

I just pretend to be that simple

But in reality a simple life is not for me.

And if you should know,

I would love to tell you but I am afraid.

I have fears too.

I hate people to judge and I know you feel the same way.

But that’s not even the half of it,

They are so critical at times it is hard to handle it.

Some times I want to burst out

And tell my secrets to the universe,

So I have to quiet my insides

And put up with the constant tears the come out at night.

 

You say my life is easy,

And for you it might seem that way.

But if you really knew what I put up with day to day

You might change your mind.

Fill my shoes for just one day,

Why don’t you try to rename this sorrow that I retain?

If you knew then you would understand.

Sleep is something I take for granted

Just to ease my mind,

But maybe if you stand beside me and hold my hand

Just help me through this pain and aggravation

Maybe I can live in the light again.

 

Don’t judge based on the smiling shield I surround myself in

Be gentle and try to get to know me

Try to look into my eyes and relieve some of this pain

All I need is a little understanding.

Maybe if you stay long enough I can take off this armor

And show you myself,

Try and be totally open.

I know that you can love me.

But don’t get me wrong, I don’t want your sympathy

All I want is your love and your beautiful understanding.