I miss her at the moment... I met her in college. Class of 92. I remember she used to wear this hot pink scrunchy, every time we had a PSYCH 1 test. She'd explained how it was a good luck charm and I'd laugh... Then she'd twitch her nose and smirk.
See, she would twitch her nose when she was annoyed. She would also be really insecure about her laugh, so she'd do this thing where it get really high pitch at first and then she'd cover her mouth, look down, and hold it in, as if she were ashamed to find something humorous. She would walk down the street and if she'd see a penny on the ground she'd turn it on its head so that the next person would have a lucky penny...
She made me feel lucky... And now she's gone. She's gone and I miss her. I miss her voice, her scent, and the way her nose twitched when she was annoyed. She's gone and i won't probably ever see her again.
I didn't do what I did on purpose. I would never hurt her that way on purpose. Things just got out of control and one thing led to the next and it happened. I'm sure she forgave me for what I did where ever she is today.
It happened so sudden. I still don't understand, I mean just one full blast to the head and she was gone... She's beautiful... She felt cold after a while. Her blood running down my thigh as I rest her head on my lap and play with her frigid hair oh so gently, and then I'd whisper our wedding song...
Door half closed, in a dark room... I'm next. I tried to place the gun in my mouth as comfortable as possible till I pulled the trigger... BANG.
I'm gone... Till death for us part right?