Jeremy Pulled The Trigger

This poem is about the 1990 suicide of Jeremy Delle, which I decided to do more research on after looking into Pearl Jam's tribute titled "Jeremy."

Horrendous laughter pierced the walls.

Trembling hands and screaming eyes

infected every witness,

as Jeremy dropped to his knees.

His neglect stained the blackboard,

as depression spread along the floor.

A book had been slammed onto a desk,

with pages that were supposed to be empty.

Suspension hours were beautiful,

when he saw her smile.

Every line of words he carved was honest,

and he listened with his pupils,

until there were only "later days".

It was his blind joke,

that put the voices of students to sleep.

Thirty pairs of eyes forever scarred,

as their superior mumbled in disbelief.

Jeremy spoke in class that day,

leaving a moment that will be amplified forever.

Author's Note

Pretty heavy piece, but I enjoyed exploring different forms of art in order to write new material.

Reviews

[Chanyanna]

Beautiful...
Very hard hitting
Leaves the reader speechless.

[Janine Boiselle]

Good to know that I can see this same reaction from readers after first sharing this to my classmates ahh about 4 years ago? Thank you for the compliment :)

[therisa]

Sadly, Janine, I can relate to Jeremy, in more ways, than I care to share. I was, in my last year of high school, when Pearl Jam broke out, with this song. In my final three years of high school, I had nightly suicide attempts, which my parents knew nothing of, until 2010, when I told my mom, over the phone. I so clinically depressed, I didn't know up from down, and no one realized this.

Am wondering, what type of music, would be accompanying these lyrics, if you were to record this, as a demo? Myself, I would choose, either, a gothic or a grunge-like tune, which explaining the background to the tune, in the liner notes.

[Janine Boiselle]

Given that I probably would have never heard of this tragedy without Pearl Jam's record, I would definitely give it a grunge-like sound if I were to ever track this. I'm not much of a musician, but it would be cool to hear someone experiment with my material.

I sincerely apologize if this piece was in any way negatively triggering due to the subject. I cannot at all relate to your experiences, but I just want to make sure that my work doesn't bring any readers into a negative state of mind.

But again, thank you for sharing another personal side of yourself with me.

[therisa]

Myself, I was thinking of a track, like The Cure's, "Edge of the deep green sea," a very melodic but sad tune, to convey the emotions of these lyrics. And yes, it talks about a suicide, in the lyrics, but, for a different reason. Please ?Janine, you don't have to apology, for anything. Am moving past that part of my life, although I do continue to have PTSD flashbacks, from that period of my life, it was filled with a lot of violence, at home and on the school grounds. Sadly, I know, of other transwomen, who had a harsher childhood, than I have had. Janine, anything can act, as a trigger, to survivor of violence. Just have to adopt and find methods to counter it, when triggered.