I feel terrible. I feel like no matter what I do, what I say, I can't make anything better for you. I see you talking to others and think to myself, do I even help you anymore? Does it matter if I'm here or not? You are serious around me but around others, you smile and laugh. I used to make you smile and laugh. But sometimes I wonder if I'm just a thorn in your side now. I miss the old days, but missing them doesn't make anything better. Life is always changing, and I find it very difficult to adjust so quickly to that change. I need time to adjust, but there's no more time. I breaking inside. I'm falling apart. This helpful heart is slowly fading away, fading fast...