Alone

A Poem by jay elle

alone.
i feel alone.
everybody cares for themselves.
lovers.
family.
friends.
work colleagues.
they themselves are their number one priority.
who am i?
nobody.
i thought i was somebody.
finally finding my feet on the ground.
constant whining and moaning.
creating drama.
causing trouble.
always crying.
forever doubting.
never happy.
says he.
i can't cope.
your too much.
you stress me out.
why can't you ever be happy?
happy? i say.
no.
i am sad.
dying inside.
a constant battle.
my heart is in tears.
every
single
day.
thought he'd understand.
showed affection.
showed he cared.
always there.
no.
secretly he hated me.
false pretense.
wanted me to shut-up.
just like everyone else.
thank you i say.
for telling me how you really feel.
thank you i say.
for making me feel alone again.
i cry every night.
try to feel better.
cry so much.
it hurts.
try to feel better the next day.
a glimmer of hope.
hide the pain with a smile.
sensual eyes covered in eyeliner.
so it stops any tears.
later on.
back to square one.
alone.
nobody to turn to.
just this.
nobody to speak to.
just this.